Life as it is.

2011-01-20T16:55:00.000-08:00

Hmm time to let off some steam here.

Everytime I think of work and who I have to work with, my legs turn to lead.

It makes me don't wanna go anymore.

Not that I love working at that place but...

Well, my work place recently (a month ago) hired a new guy.

I thought he was okay till he started doing reception duties.

My god, I could really strangle him to death.

This fucker asked all sort of stupid questions.

Ones that are easy to figure out; without having to ask someone about it.

Best part about it is, the supervisor taught him and answered all his questions.

And, when we teach him things, he'll fucking say, "I know".

THEN, HE JUST HAD TO COME AND ASK ME AGAIN AND AGAIN AFTER THE SUPERVISOR WENT BACK!

MCB betul.

Every single day, he will surely have one stupid question to ask.

Oh well, I think I pissed him off the other day by not being helpful but then again, who's more pissed off? Me or him?

If he hates me now, good coz everytime he opens his mouth, my tolerance level decreases.

Moving on to Consumer Behaviour classes.

Now, how could I not talk about CB?

First, we do not have Irwan for CB.

&*&#@#$@(*

Okay, it's alright, I could live with that.

But, our new lecturer is...I don't know how to describe her.

She keeps changing her mind, my god.

One minute, she says this, the next minute, she'll say something else.

What pisses me off the most is about the grouping.

First, she said, it's okay for soime groups to have 6 members.

Then when we submitted our names and all, that woman said all groups must have 5 members only.

LIKE WTF!?

So...I kinda...lost...my temper. Coz. I. Have. JW. In. My. Group. (but now he's no longer in my group. YAY!)

Her way of teaching is boring.

It's kinda like having high school History classes all over again.

Yes, it is that bad.

Come to our CB classes and you can see most of the students are more busy paying attention to their laptops than to her.

Not only that, she doesn't really respect our names.

She didn't respect my table too.

Come on la, we're all young adults.

No point banging on the table to get our attention and to shut us up, right?

Enough with all of that.

Lately, I've been obsessed with the thought of studying abroad.

I guess I want a new change of scenery and a new experience to gain.

I don't wanna be cooped up here.

But, money is the obstruction here.

Hmm maybe some long lost relative of mine will show up in my life and finance me to study abroad.

LOL pardon my imagination. XD

Baby, I don't wanna wait another day

Hold my breath and hope you'll stay

But I don't wanna let you go

Girl, I'm running out patience, out of time

Every night I'm praying you'll be mine

So girl, you gotta let me know

Or I'm gonna have to let you go

Yes or no?

xX Shaun K.

2010-12-15T01:12:00.000-08:00

I finally got around to combining the lyrics for Love The Way You Lie (part 2) and Grenade.

It is a little long but I kinda like the combined version. XD

Maybe I should cut out some parts? Or maybe not?

Aaaand, I've decided to get another piercing.

An eyebrow piercing.

Don't know why I suddenly got this itch to go get another piercing.

Did some research on eyebrow piercing after hearing some "horror" stories about it.

Turns out it's perfectly safe...I think.

I've gotta go to Mandala to inquire further before I really get it.

Alright, that should be about it la.

Here's my combined lyrics for Love The Way You Lie and Grenade.

Your gonna stand there and watch me burn,

But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,

But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.

I love the way you lie.

Easy come, easy go

That's just how you live, oh

Take, take, take it all,

But you never give

Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -

Why were they open?

Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash

You tossed it in the trash, you did

To give me all your love is all I ever asked,

Cause what you don't understand is

I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)

You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh

I would go through all this pain,

Take a bullet straight through my brain,

Yes, I would die for ya baby but you won't do the same

On the first page of our story, the future seems so bright.

And this thing turned out so evil, I don’t know why I’m still surprised.

Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from

Mad woman, bad woman,

That's just what you are, yeah,

You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car

Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take death to new extremes.

But you’ll always be my hero, even though you lost your mind.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,

But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.

I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)

You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh

I would go through all this pain,

Take a bullet straight through my brain,

Yes, I would die for ya baby but you won't do the same

But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.

I love the way you lie.

If my body was on fire,

You're just gonna stand there, stand there,

and watch me burn down in flames

You said you loved me you're a liar but I'll always, always love the way you lie.

But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya

Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)

You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh

Your gonna stand there and hear me cry,

But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.

Ohhh, I love the way you lie.

And I would go through all this pain,

Take a bullet straight through my brain,

Yes, I would die for ya baby but you won't do the same

I'll always love the way you lie

But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no....

xX Shaun K.

2010-12-08T00:53:00.001-08:00

Hmm I feel like giving myself a tough challenge...

PLAYING THE PIANO

Well I managed to learn Grade 1 on my own but my laziness got the better of me, so yeah...

Maybe I should learn how to play Taeyang's Wedding Dress.

No black keys, no black keys... *mutters*

Oh, Just a Grenade Dream? It's now Love The Way You Lie (part 2) and Grenade.

Because...I was playing around with the chords of Love The Way You Lie and it hit me...

Hey, this rhymes with Grenade's melody. AWESOME!

So yeah, in the process of putting the lyrics together.

It'll only take 5 minutes but since I'm lazy....yeahhh....

Since I'm updating this dead blog out of boredom, might as well write down my Christmas wish list =D

1. A percussion pad

2. Samsons microphone (can't remember the model but I remember the price, RM458 *dies*)

3. Electric guitar

4. Keyboard

5. More Moolaaahhhh =D =D

6. All the music albums that I wish to buy but didn't.

7. Books!

Okay, end of update.

Toodles!

xX Shaun K.

2010-12-04T17:25:00.000-08:00

Haiii, yes, I'm back.

I'm currently having my sem break now =D

Whee~

But I dread receiving my results coz I fucked up 3 papers =(

Law was a killer, everything that I studied didn't come out.

Fuck....

I don't wanna fail Law coz I can't stand the torture of having to go through all the night classes, the mid-term exam and all the assignments =(

I WANNA PASS LAW!!!

I don't mind having a low CGPA if I pass Law =(

Grr...

Well, here's my latest project.

Just a Grenade Dream.

As you can see from the title, it's a combination of the songs, Grenade and Just a Dream =D

Inspired to do mash ups after watching Sam Tsui's mash up of Firework and Grenade.

Besides that, me friend, Zi Xin, got me hooked up on that too =P

I'm still trying to harmonize those two songs together but seeing how little my knowledge of music is...I'm failing at that badly =(

I was thinking of mashing up Love the Way You Lie (part 2) and Grenade.

Those two seem to rhyme better.

Here's the lyrics for Just a Grenade Dream. Will tweak it some more when I'm not feeling so lazy...

Easy come, Easy go

That's just how you live oh

Take, take, take it all

But you never give

Should have known

You was trouble

From the first kiss

Had your eyes wide open

Why were they open?

Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash,

Tossed it in the trash you did

To give me all your love

Is all I ever asked

But what you don't understand is

I was thinking about you

Thinking bout me

Thinkin bout us (us)

What we gunna be?

Open my eyes, (Yeah)

it was only just a dream...

And I would catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh

When I be ridin

man I swear I see your face at every turn

trying to get my usher on but I can't let it burn

And I just hope that she notice she the only one I yearn for

Oh I miss her, when will I learn?

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.

And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.

But she made a decision that she wanted to move on.

Cuz I was wrong.

My love of my life, My shawty, my wife

She left me, Im tied.

Cuz I knew that it just ain't right

And I would catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh

I would go through all this pain,

Take a bullet straight through my brain,

Yes, I would die for ya baby

But you won't do the same.

Will she come back? (back)

No one knows

I realize (Yeah)

It was only just a dream...

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up

Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything

You said you loved me you're a liar

Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...

But darling I'll still catch a grenade for ya

Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)

You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.

Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?

Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.

And I would go through all this pain,

Take a bullet straight through my brain,

Yes, I would die for ya baby

But you won't do the same.

No, no, no~

And baby you're still a firework...

Right, after this, I'll mash up Ne-yo's One in a Million and Bruno Mars' Just The Way You Are (god, how I hate this song).

Peace out.

xX Shaun K.

2010-10-16T01:54:00.000-07:00

What do you say when sorry is never enough though you mean it?

What do you do when you're too afraid of falling right back in?

What do you do when the words you say came directly from your heart but seems hallow to the other person?

EMO Sikit la yeah? XD

Sometimes the smallest things in life are the hardest to do,like clicking on her screen name at Msn or Facebook and just saying ‘hi’ cause it hurts to know that you might be in love again.

Oh man...this is very...true...So true that it hurts.

2010-10-08T06:02:00.000-07:00

...Life is pretty stressful lately.
This semester is pretty hectic since there is Radio Production.
I had a lot on my mind...Too much...

Don't you just love reading things you're not supposed to read? x)

2010-09-11T08:20:00.000-07:00

I'm bored so here I am with a tattoo filled post. XD

Now here's a few tattoo designs that I think would be wicked to be tattooed.

This is the reason why I fell in love with bio tattoos =D

Now, this will be wicked to be tattooed especially on the leg.

3D-ish tattoo. I want this!

For my love of guitars. The skull is an added bonus ;)

Wicked bio tattoo.

Heartagram Ooh-lalala

Another wicked wolf tattoo!

For my love of Avenged Sevenfold =D

Baby, I want another tattoo =[

xX Shaun K.

2010-08-21T22:40:00.000-07:00

Helloo dead blog!

I'm only here coz I'm freaking bored at work.

I'm literally foaming at the mouth already. Gahhh!! *bangs head on the wall*

My schedule for this semester is pretty fucked up.

I have bloody night classes and it's LAW!!

Percentage of failures in Law is high and I'm scared.

I'm not exactly the brightest student, you see.

Oh well...gotta work harder.

On a totally different note...Chantri is awesome blossom lover. Bleh...

xX Shaun K.

2010-06-06T04:49:00.000-07:00

Hi blog, it's been a while, yes?

That aside...

1. I've recently rekindled my long-lost love (and passion) for writing. Though, I'm still lazy as hell to finish writing a chapter x)

2. I find Penang to be 'overflowing' with cars and that causes traffic jams at ungodly hours. I mean, do you expect a jam at 2 p.m.? I'm sorry, inappropriate seems to be the better word than ungodly but what the heck, I like being dramatic. XD

3. I hate traffic jams. I hate it even more when I have a bad stomach ache. My left foot hurts from all that clutch stepping but I still love manual transmission cars than auto transmission cars. They're more cooler. Hee.

4. I've been spending my time playing Crisis Core. I was 2 years late in playing it but....WHY DID SEPHIROTH HAVE TO TURN BAD!?!?!? He was so, so, innocent and goody goody in Crisis Core *sobs*

5. I procrastinate a lot. I should be working on my MCS assignment but here I am, typing out this boring blog post. I know I...Ah, fuck, the ever present stomach ache.

Toodles!

2010-05-15T17:30:00.000-07:00

Lookie! I found a nice quote...
I know, it's emo but what the hell...
Emo quotes best describe what I feel.

For today's quote, it shall be:

"Unspoken love is like a poison. If you keep it to yourself for a long

time, it will consume you from the inside."

Heh, it already did.

xX Shaun K.

2010-04-02T05:56:00.000-07:00

Yay me!

I finally found someone to dump my old guitar to.

And that means....I CAN GET A NEW GUITAR!!

Whee~~

Me wants a decent cut in guitar that doesn't burn a hole in the pocket.

Oh, oh! I want new books too! ;)

Hmm, the supervisor has been acting a little high and mighty lately...towards me.

I, for the life of me, can't even think of what I had done.

Oh well, it doesn't matter.

If you don't wanna talk to me, so be it.

Two can play at that game. =D

xX Shaun K.

2010-03-13T20:01:00.000-08:00

While browsing through i can read's tumblr account, I came upon this phrase:

"No matter how coins you throw in a fountain or the number of fingers you cross, if it's not meant to be...it won't happen."

Somehow, this phrase has sunk deep within me.

I realized the hopelessness of my situation in a way that I haven't before.

It certainly did opened my eyes.

Praying, wishing and tossing coins into wishing wells won't make something happen.

We need to go all out to get it and if we can't get it no matter how hard we try, then move on with life.

Better things are yet to come.

Seriously, we can't spend our lives moping over something that has come to pass, right?

Anyway, I'm glad that I came upon this phrase =D

It has become my mantra ever since.

Sometimes, it's all rainbows and butterflies; no gloomy clouds.

xX Shaun K.

2010-03-09T20:24:00.000-08:00

Reblogged from i can read.

And sadly, it ain't progressing. XD

xX Shaun K.

2010-03-09T01:54:00.000-08:00

Life...has been boring lately.

It's pretty uneventful too.

And I've been putting up late hours too.

There's just some sort of calm in being awake at the wee hours of the morning.

There'd be no sound; only silence.

And that's what I need right now.

Silence.

It's good, you know?

Well, I've got new tattoos too.

And, I still want more.

I'm already searching for my next desgin. XD

Tatoos...they're like an addiction.

Once you have one, you'll want more and more.

Hmm maybe I'll just tattoo this phrase: Je ne regrette rien.

Yup, life goes on.

xX Shaun K.

2010-02-26T03:01:00.000-08:00

It's been a while since I last wrote a short story so I'mma go ahead and post it up here.

It was written for my Public Speaking speech

Mind you, it's not all that nice.

After all, the story was based on Taeyang's Wedding Dress. XD

Enjoy.

There are times in life when we fall in love but the other person will never be able to return our feelings or we are just afraid to show them how we feel so we won't jeopardize a friendship but sometimes we but have no choice but to let go of the one special person in our lives. It gets hard and sometimes, it is almost next to impossible to let them go. The real pain does not come from the waiting but rather when we watch the one we love give their love to another or in the worst case, watching them tie the knot with another. It is until such time that we have but no choice to move on and let them go. This, my friends, is one such story about the pain of love.

Drumming his fingers on the top of the grand piano, Tae stared at the music notes before looking out of the window. A perfect sunshiny day. A scene from the past plays on in his mind. Narsha was sitting across of him, her lips curled into a pout before she burst out into laughter. Tae smiled at her as he reached out to ruffle her hair. Stabs after stabs of pain came as the scene replays on and on in his mind. He sighed sadly. Will he be able to laugh and smile with her anymore? Will they ever have these moments anymore?

Music filled the room as his fingers flowed over the piano keys, striking each chord to create a piece so beautiful yet so hauntingly sad. Tears dripped down onto the keys as he continued playing the song that he had composed for no one but her. Tae smiled bitterly when he thought of how he is to play this song for her later...At her wedding...Her wedding with his best friend, Nick.

Tae stood in front of the mirror, re-adjusting his neck tie and feeling resigned at the same time. Part of him doesn't want to attend her wedding yet the other treacherous part of him wishes to be there to see the union between his two best friends. Best to just get this over and done with, he thought to himself. He smooth down his vest and took one final look at himself in the mirror as he walked towards the door.

As he made his way through the crowded street to the church, more of their memories together played in his mind. It was one of those lazy afternoons where they had nothing to do but lazed around in Tae's house. Narsha was leaning against him as they were sharing the Ipod. To have her that close to him is almost like heaven on Earth. Though she was nothing but his best friend, it was more than enough for him but now there can be no more of these moments for him.

Tae stood outside of the church, looking at the Roman style building. His cowardly self wanted nothing but to turn around and run as far as he could, far from this place. To walk through those doors will only kill him. But he had a promise to fulfill. He had promised her that he would play her song for her wedding. Steeling his heart, he took a step forward.

Friends greeted him, all smiles. They do not how much he felt for her. Tae made his way into the church, his heart getting heavier with each step he takes. She sat on an armchair, surrounded by her bridesmaids who were busy putting the final touches to her hair. Tae stood looking at the beauty that he could never be able to hold. She lifted her hand in greeting and smile. Tae returned the gesture and watched as she got up and made her way towards him.

As she walked towards him, her husband-to-be came right up to her to hold her hand and to greet Tae together with his wife-to-be. Tae looked aside when Nick began to tease her. What he'll give to be one standing beside her, teasing her and making her smile...

Tae took his seat in front of the piano as everyone took a seat to watch the couple tie the knot in matrimony. He watched as Narsha's father led her towards Nick who was waiting at the altar. Both were all smiles. Tae began to play Narsha's song as they exchange their vows, his heart breaking agonizingly slow. The pain increased a ten-fold. She was already Nick's, tied together for life. There can be no place for Tae in her heart anymore.

Tae stood aside from the circle of well-wishers surrounding the newly-weds, congratulating them and wishing them a good life together. His heart broken into a thousand pieces, he couldn't find it in him to stand there and watch her being so happy. It was too much for him. He pulled a a platinum ring with a white diamond on it out from his pocket and looked at it. This ring was meant for her, meant to grace her finger. She was meant to be his but Nick beat him to it.

He looked at the newly weds one more time before letting the ring slip from his hands. It fell with a ringing sound as it hit the ground. Just like the sound of his breaking heart. He'd disappear until he could face them with no pain in his heart. Yes, he'd disappear.

Without a second look back, he walked away...

xX Shaun K.

2010-02-11T03:05:00.000-08:00

My emotions are running haywire lately.

It has been running haywire after talking to Felili two nights ago.

It made me look at myself in a different way.

That aside, which each new semester, I'm beginning to feel that taking up Mass Comm was a mistake.

It's not what I wanted to do.

I wanna be doing Audio Engineering instead.

xX Shaun K.

2010-02-05T23:20:00.000-08:00

The pet craze has hit in once again and this time I want a ferret.

Well, I've always wanted a ferret but the price for a ferret is beyond my budget.

Since I'm working now, I can save up for a ferret. Wheee~~~

Aww, aren't they cute? =D

*swoons*

Ahhh~~ *dies*

You will be mine someday. XD

xX Shaun K.

2010-02-03T06:44:00.000-08:00

Yet, another beautiful song from Daughtry.

Ten miles from town and I just broke down
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know

Believe me I won't stop at nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wastin' my time

Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I would die here without you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do, yeah

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' 'bout all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through, yeah
Know there's no life after you

Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you, yeah

Daughtry - Life After You

You and I together; it just feels so right? Bahhhhhh!

xX Shaun K.

2010-01-19T03:12:00.000-08:00

To be at peace with ourself, we must see beyond the face in the mirror and hence, we can see the parts that fester deep within us. So, how is it that we can see beyond ourselves and be a spectator looking from the outside at the being that is actually our daily selves? I've been looking at the mirror lately, hoping to seek some peace within myself and all I could say to myself is "Your face damn kiam pak, man. Looking at it is enough to make me feel annoyed" XD

I hate myself sometimes.

Not because of my imperfections but rather, these intense emotions that I feel constantly.

It is not something that can be shrugged off so easily.

I wish that it could be loh.

Oh well...

*wishes for a peaceful day*

xX Shaun K.

2010-01-13T06:26:00.000-08:00

Whoo, I'm bloody in love with Secrets in Studio!!!

Psst! I couldn't find a picture of the band, only this.

Awesome band with awesome songs.
Their songs just make you go ahhhh *melts*
Not Today is an awesome song!! Whoo!!
I prefer the original song than the acoustic version though.

Secrets in Studio - Not Today

Over my head, over my head
Lookin’ for a hand to pull me up
I hold my breath, hold my breath
If it’s the last the thing that I do
I won’t reach for you

Not today, not tomorrow
I don’t want someone to follow
Out of here
I’ll take the fear, I’ll take the blame
No regrets, not today
It’s mine to build or break
I don’t want someone to follow
I don’t want someone to follow

Over my head, over my head
The sky is fallin’, pourin’ down on me
Don’t hold your breath, don’t hold your breath
I don’t wanna be rescued
I won’t run to you

Not today, not tomorrow
I don’t want someone to follow
Out of here
I’ll take the fear, I’ll take the blame
No regrets, not today
It’s mine to build or break
I don’t want someone to follow
I don’t want someone to follow

I hear the seconds ticking
I feel the tension build
The strings won’t hold me down
They never will, they never will
I hear the seconds ticking
I feel the tension build
The strings won’t hold me down
They never will, they never will, They never will

No regrets, not today
It’s mine to build or break
I don’t want someone to follow
I don’t want someone to follow

I hear the seconds ticking
I feel the tension build
The strings won’t hold me down
They never will, they never will

Yes, not today, not tomorrow. Perhaps, 'never' is the right word? Don't know what I'm talking about? Remain in the dark then. =D
xX Shaun K.

2010-01-12T05:29:00.000-08:00

Gah, I should just punch you in the face whenever you land a punch on me!!

Hah, don't mind that.

Just an errant thought running loose. ^^

Okaayyyy, I'm suppose to be writing a speech about the most emotional moment of my life.

Heck, I've got a few.

Hmm...I'll do a list instead la. =D

(Psstt Lin, I copied your blog idea. XD)

Top 5 Emotional Moments

1. When my mum fell down.

2. When Dale, my chipmunk died.

3. When Alex, my miniature pincher died.

4. Break-ups. Period.

5. When my so-called best friend(s) backstabbed me.

And, there's all to it folks! XD

xX Shaun K.

2010-01-02T23:20:00.000-08:00

I seriously can't wait for these two years to pass by a.s.a.p.

I can't stand it anymore. XD

Lalala~~

The mother of all my New Year Resolutions:

Spend more time being alone. =D

Whee~~~

At least, this green little feeling won't choke me all the time when I'm alone.

Muahahaha!

Damn, caffeine is not good for me.

xX Shaun K.

2010-01-02T20:46:00.001-08:00

Song of the moment and current message tone. XD

An awesome song.

Check it out, the acoustic version just rocks. =D

Daphne Loves Derby - Sun

I'm desperate to know how you are

I hope you're deep asleep

I've been awake for days

Trying to study every inch of your body

And in this picture,

From a distant state

when I can safely say,

Nothing in this world could tear me down in any way

But like a dream you disappeared without a sound, without a trace...

Sleep well darling,

Wherever you are, I hope that you're happy tonight

And maybe you found someone who will love you right

Sleep well darling

I'm desperate to say now I need you more than ever

but all I could say was goodnight

This is for a girl back home

She tore down all my walls

Left me for all she had known

But I pushed it all away from me

And no no, even if I knew, even if I knew what to say to you

Its just too late to make you stay

I'm sick of fighting this broken fate

Someone else gets to tell you that you're beautiful...

Sleep well darling,

Wherever you are, I hope that you're happy tonight

And maybe you found someone who will love you right

Sleep well darling

I'm desperate to say now I need you more than ever

but all I could say was goodnight

Its the last thing I want, but its all that I got

Its the last thing I need but I still carry you in my heart, in my heart...

Sleep well darling,

Wherever you are, I hope that you're happy tonight

And maybe you found someone who will love you right

Sleep well darling,

I'm desperate to say now I need you more than ever

but all I could say was goodnight

xX Shaun K.

2010-01-01T06:46:00.000-08:00

Right, I'm gonna re-open this bloggie. XD
And changes were made to the blog so the Haru Haru tab can be seen clearly. >.<
Me no likey >.<

xX Shaun K.

2010-01-01T06:27:00.000-08:00

I decided to tab this out since I can get very lost when it comes to learning a song through Youtube without the tabs available. I'm guitar retarded, you see. XD
This IS NOT created by me though I did make one or two tiny changes to it or maybe more changes to it than I intended to >.< Other than that, that's how aiyohhhh played it.

Go check out her cover of this wonderful song and there's the link to the tutorial too in case you start seeing blank with my noob-ish tab. =D
Cover: Click Here.
Tutorial: Click Here.

Intro for Haru Haru.

[054030] [Cadd9]

e|------3--2-------------3--2-------------3--2------------------------------------------------3--2-------------------------------------|
B|-------------3----------------3-----------------3-------3----------3------------3---0------------------3-------0--------------0-----|
G|-4--------------4--4-------------2--2--------------------------0-----------0-----------------------------------0----------0---------|
D|------------------------------------------------------------4-----------4----------------------------------------2------2-------------|
A|------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------3--------------------|
E|---------------------------------------------------------0----------------------------0------------------------------------------------|

e|--------3--2--------------------------------3--2--3--3(h)5----------------------------------------------------------------------------|
B|--0------------2------0----------------0-------------------------3------------3--------3-------3-------------------------------------|
G|----------------------0-------0--------------------------------------------0--------0-------0------------0----------------------------|
D|----------------------2---2---------------------------------------------4--------4-------4----------4---------------------------------|
A|-(3)------------------3-------------------------------0--------------------------------------------------------------------------------|
E|-----------------------------------------------------------------0----------------------------------------------------------------------|

Verse:

Cadd9[032033] , D[000232] , [054030]--> I'm sorry but I don't know what this chord is called too >.<
Cadd9 D [054030] Repeat.

- According to aiyohhh, it's up to you on how you wanna play the verse part =)

Chorus:
(strum)
Cadd9 D Em
Cadd9 D Em
Repeat until the end of the chorus.

Outro:

Cadd9, D
Oh, girl, I cry cry

[054030]
You're, my all, say goodbye bye

Cadd9, D
Oh, my love, don't lie lie

[054030]
You're, my heart, say goodbye

- I THINK that is how the outro is played. Not too sure though. Go watch the video. =D

xX Shaun K.

2009-12-26T03:25:00.000-08:00

Since I'm having one of my food-craving moments, I might as well post up something about it. XD

Okaaayyy, when I get my paycheck, this is what I want to buy/eat.

Hmm if my is back then she'll have no choice but to get them for me. XD

Alright, List 1.

Ingredients for burgers.

- Buns

- Chicken patties

- Mayonnaise

- Lea and Perings (is this how you spell it?)

- Chili sauce

- Vegetables (cabbage, carrots and onions)

- Cheese (cheese makes the burger TASTY!!)

- Eggs.

Okay, on to List 2.

Ingredients for macaroni (bolognaise style)

- Prego instant bolognaise sauce (HAH, I'm much too lazy to make my own bolognaise sauce)

- One box of macaroni.

- Parmesan cheese (Parmesan cheese is a MUST!!!)

List 3.

Ingredients for fried curry maggi mee.

- Maggi Mee; curry flavour.

- Vegetables (cabbage and carrots)

- Minced meat.

- Eggs.

List 4.

Ingredients for spaghetti carbonara.

- spaghetti.

List of ingredients yet to come as I know nuts about making this dish.

(Okay, enough of the ingredient lists)

5. Sushi (Unagi is L-O-, L-O- , L-O-V-E)

6. Korean BBQ (The pork in Korean Palace is to DIE for. Yum yum)

7. Italian food. (I want the lasagna only. XD)

8. Barbecued chicken wings and sausages. (I don't know why but I'm craving for these all of a sudden. The ones I barbecued are yummy! Lalala I know I'm self-praising but who cares? =P)

9. Banana leaf rice. (It's been too long since I last ate this dish)

10. Some good ol' creamy mushroom soup with garlic breads. (Simple meal but tasty. Mmm~~)

And that concludes my food-craving post. =D

xX Shaun K.

2009-12-26T03:12:00.000-08:00

Okayy, it's been a while since I last complained about work.

In my old blog, my manager back in Swensen's is the cause of all those complain posts.

And now, the new manager in my new workplace is pissing me off very badly.

I'm not the only one that she is pissing off though.

No one likes her.

Blah.

You know what she said to my supervisor?

She said that her job here is to order us around ONLY.

Wtf?

If your job as a manager is to do that only, you might as well don't work here.

We've been managing quite well without a manager for the past few months.

Hiring a manager like her doesn't make any difference at all.

She doesn't even wanna work from 1 to 10 too.

I mean, come on, you're a manager, you need to be working like our shifts too.

Not only that, you can bloody fetch the maid back coz you're bloody on the way home unlike the rest of us.

Instead of making us so bloody annoyed, you should be finding a solution about the maid thingy, right?

We don't want the petrol allowance.

Oh yes, we don't want it.

And oh, I'd really appreciate it if you don't talk to us so rudely when we voiced out our opinions regarding the maid thingy.

Assholic much. Tch tch.

In short, Miss Manager, you are nothing compared to MG.

Now that's one manager who knows her job well.

A manager well-loved by us.

If only she can come back here as our manager.

If only she can...

xX Shaun K.

2009-12-24T05:49:00.000-08:00

New Year's around the bend.

Yup, it's time to make more resolutions for next year.

Not like I'll stick to them though.

Okay maybe, just for a month or two then bye-bye resolutions. XD

Anddddd, today's Christmas eve.

Happy to say, I'm all alone on this day.

Yes, yes, I've been feeling a little anti-social lately. =D

Sometimes, being alone can be fun.

Ain't no one telling you, "Goddamn it, you are so emo!!".

Mind you, I'm not emo most of the time, I just prefer to keep to myself. ;)

Lalalala~~~

I still want Boys Like Girl's Love Drunk album.

Get it for me, will ya? XD

Andddd, I'm craving for the Tanjung Bungah burger.

Call me crazy but I drove all the way there just to get the oh-so-yummy Burger Special.

It's yummy, ya hear me? YUMMYYYYY!!

I still want to see her smile. That's all I'm ever asking for Christmas, Santa. =D

xX Shaun K.

2009-12-19T05:46:00.000-08:00

Lalala, you just don't know.

The first two lines from my cover song.

Your smile is so perfect and it makes me melt inside,
I tried to find a reason but I just couldn't find one.

Yup, it's your smile that I dream of.

Why?

Coz, it's the most perfect smile I've ever seen.

The sweetest too.

I just love it when you smile. XD

So, keep smiling though your hurting inside.

You never know who takes joy from seeing you smile. =D

Lalala, you just don't know...

xX Shaun K.

2009-12-07T07:14:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I get so tired from all this denying and hiding.
So why hide, you might ask.
Truth be told, I'm nothing more than a coward.
Thinking that everything will be okay if I hide everything in; pushing this pain deeper and deeper.
Little did I know, the wound continued festering, festering, festering...
So what am I to do?
*sigh*

Here are some lyrics from some songs worth checking out.

You make it impossible
to get to your heart
as soon as I'm close
is when you close the door
you pushing me far away
and making it hard
I know what you're going through
been hurt before
so let down your guard
I'll show you LOVE
but you still running like a rebel without a cause
you make it impossible to get to your heart
you still running like a rebel without a cause

Nikki Flores - Rebel

If I could live without you,
I would just walk away.
But I feel sick when I'm not around you.
Like I'm allergic to the pain.
If I could breathe without you,
I would let go of your hand.
but every time I try,
I feel like half a man.
So its obvious I can't.

No prayers of love
Have fallen way too far.
There's no cure, no drug
To heal my burning heart...

Claude Kelly - Obvious

And the second I looked at you I couldn't say a thing
All of a sudden I had butterflies in my stomach, I couldn't breathe

Why? Why couldn't I show her what I felt inside my heart?
Why? Why couldn't I tell her how special she means to me?
Why? Does it have to be this way?

Why? Why do I sit and cry cause she's not mine?
Why? Why do I feel so down, when she's not around?
Why? Does it have to be this way?

It's time for me to stop being a coward
And face this stuff right now.

Finaldraft - Why

February of 14, I was lonely on this day
Guess Cupid never got my letter so yet
I still pray
Each and everyday of my life hoping that
she would stay
But on this day I found out she went on
her separate way
Things I thought were wrong I found out
it was true
I messed up again thinking that it was just
me and you
Alone on this date and it was just like last year
Same time, same rhyme, and baby you ain't here

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme.
You would still have my heart until
the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my
Valentine.

Albert Posis ft. Shiny - Valentine

You got me reminiscing all the time
Wish that I could press rewind.

Stevie Hoang - So Cold

Girl it's written all on your face
that you don't really want me here.

I understand and I'm sorry girl for wasting your time
I'm sorry cos i can't get you off my mind
I handed you my heart and then you broke it
I hope that you cared for me
I'm sorry for loving you
I'm sorry that I tried.

A. Dave - Sorry For Loving You

Throw me a rope
Don't leave me drowning in an ocean so cold
I really need you to help me understand
Why you don't reach for my hand
When you know i'm hurting

I've been on the sideline waiting baby
Feeling like i'm here alone
I don't wanna be your last resort
Sitting on the bench waiting for your call
I thought that we were closer

I try and i try and you're never around
I say i won't cry, but the tears they come
Pouring and the truth is i
Don't wanna leave but i'm losing my mind
Waiting on the sideline

This is your chance
Our song is playing
And you should want us to dance
You used to laugh when i would step on your feet
Is that just a memory?

Marina Chello - Sideline

I think I'll stop here before I spam this whole post with lyrics. =D

xX Shaun K.

2009-12-03T06:18:00.000-08:00

I've got nothing to hide anymore.
Maybe only a broken heart that's on the mend.
It seems that I can never hate you.
It just makes me miss you even more.
Crap.
Oh well, you hate me.
Isn't that what I want?
Oh well...

xX Shaun K.

2009-11-24T06:29:00.000-08:00

POST DELETED!!

Lalala~~
Now, isn't Sarah Shahi hot? XD

Current band addiction: Hollywood Undead.

I loved you, you made me, hate me.
You gave me, hate, see?
It saved me and these tears are deadly.
You feel that?
I rip back, everytime you tried to steal that.
You feel bad? You feel sad?
Im sorry, hell no fuck that! It was my heart, it was my life, it was my start, it was your knife. This strife it dies, this life and these lies.
And these lungs have sung this song for too long, and its true I hurt too, remember I loved you!

Hollywood Undead - My Black Dahlia

xX Shaun K.

2009-11-11T07:34:00.000-08:00

I found my song of the moment. WOO-HOO!!

No one knows how you feel
No one there you'd like to see
The day was dark and full of pain
You write help with your own blood
'Cause hope is all you've got
You open up you eyes
But nothings changed

I don't want to cause you trouble
Don't wanna stay too long
I just came here to say to you

Turn around, I am here
If you want it's me you'll see
Doesn't count, far or near
I can hold you when you reach for me

Your life is meaningless
Your diary full of trash
It's so hard to get along with empty hands
You're looking for the rainbow
But it died not long ago
It tried to shine just for you
Until the end

I don't want to cause you trouble
Don't wanna stay too long
I just came here to say to you
I am by your side
Just for a little while

Turn around, I am here
If you want it's me you'll see
Doesn't count, far or near
I can hold you when you reach for me

If the world makes you confused
And your senses you seem to lose
If the storm doesn't want to diffuse
And you just don't know what to do
Look around, I am here
Doesn't count far or near

I am by your side
Just for a little while

Turn around
Turn around, I am here
Turn around
Doesn't count, far or near
Turn around
If you want it's me you'll see
Turn around
I can hold you when you reach for me
Turn around, I am here
Doesn't count, far or near

I am by your side
Just for a little while
We'll make it if we try

Tokio Hotel - By Your Side

2009-11-11T06:55:00.001-08:00

I've decided.
If I were to ever to make this blog public again, it will annoy the shitcrap outta you. x)
Somehow I feel like doing just that but then again, I'm a considerate person. *ahem*
So, a private blog it shall remain then.

So, you did nothing but contradicted yourself again.
I guess you're not to be blame since you've gotten yourself in too deep with him.
I wish that sometimes I could just tell you that if you ever have a need for me to vent your frustrations and pain, I'll be there.
But things had changed between us.
I chose our division.
Unknowingly, I was the one to walk away...

I wanna be your soldier,
I wanna be your lover,
I wanna be there at your side,
And you can be my only one,
The only one for me,
For all time.
I just can't take it anymore
Watching him treat cha, treat cha,
Treat cha so bad,
Oh why, must you let him do ya like he does,
Can't chu see I love ya?
Girl, you know you'll never be alone,
Not on my watch, baby
You know you always got me...

xX Shaun K.

2009-11-03T06:39:00.001-08:00

Doodling is serious fun. x)
It kills time.
Furthermore, it describe some things words can't describe.

What goes up, has got to fall. Lame, I know.

My twisted angel with a body shape like Ezra's. I suck at drawing hands. >.<

Oh yes. x)

Doodles page 1.

Doodles page 2.

Love triangle drawn ala stick style. =D

Of ships and dinosaur-dragon hybrids.

Yee Lin's invasion of my note book.

So empty can feel no more,
As I'm left when my tears on the floor,
I wait for my heart to mend,
But you keep tearing a hole,
Inside I'm so lost,
In the middle of my heart,
Is a battlefield of love,
I've been fighting for too long,
And now I'm shattered,
From your trip in my heart,
Can't takin' it till it broke,
Oh, how it hurts,
Felt this slip from your hands,
Hit the ground and now it shattered,
I'm so shattered.
What am I still here for?
Could it be that I'm just waiting?
Hoping you'd rescue me,
And put the pieces together again.

TC - Shattered

Music heals the soul, no? ;)
Pah! Poser much.

xX Shaun K.

2009-11-02T09:35:00.001-08:00

'Stumbled upon' Christian's version of Umbrella in Youtube.
I found it to be nice, his voice so emotional; suiting the mood of the song.
Furthermore, it's done the way I like it; ala acoustic. XD
Just thought I write a little something after the lyrics. XD

You had my heart,
And we'll never be worlds apart.
And we will never be but this goodbye is inevitable.

When the sun shines, we'll shine together,
Told you I'll be here forever,
Said I'll always be your friend,
Took an oath I'mma stick it out 'till the end,
Now that it's raining more than ever,
Know that we'll still have each other,
You can stand under my umbrella.
You know, I'll always take some of my time out for you just to hear you out; to be there for you when you need a friend. I guess, you don't have a need for me anymore...But I still have my promise to you to keep. Remember how I will always say I'll always be there for you? I guess, you deemed me not worthy of your secrets and your dilemmas anymore.

These fancy things, will never come in between,
You're part of my entity, here for infinity,
When the war has took its part,
When the world has dealt its cards,
If the hand is hard, together we'll mend your heart.
If there is ever a need of me, just call my name and I'll be there to help you mend the wounds of your heart and bridge the rifts of your soul.

It's raining, raining.
And you've gone away...

Whee~~
You are so intriguing to me, my friend.
MUAHAHA!
Sorry, I'm feeling random. =D

xX Shaun K.

2009-10-30T08:23:00.000-07:00

I felt like kissing the floor when I found something that I want.
Okay, maybe not exactly want.
Gah, I can't think of that word.
My English is rotting after months of disuse.
I.should.start.writing.again. *dies*
No.
I should start reading the dictionary again. *dies horribly*

1. My guitar skills is well, uh, not improving.
Kevin owe me tabs for Love Story and Apologize.
No tabs, no improvements.
And...my song is stuck where it is.

Verse and chorus - settled.
Bridge - Uh-oh.
Lyrics - Not even close to completing a verse.

It's my laziness to continue composing and writing actually.
I find no point in continuing the song for only one reason we are all too familiar with.
Yes baby, it's pointlessnesses time again.
Lalalala.

2. Inglorious Basterds was boring.
Almost fell asleep in the cinema just by watching history getting twisted.
Holocaust or not, it still leads back to the same thing: Violence.
Bla bla bla.
I wanna watch Ninja.
Bla, more violence.

3. Wanting to be alone is definitely NOT a form of emo-ness.
Wanting to keep my silence is definitely NOT a form of emo-ness either.
Not wanting to smile is my god-damn bloody problem and it's definitely NOT a form of emo-ness.
Okay, I admit my previous blog posts have been nothing but emo crap. =.=
Screw me.

4. Bailey's Irish Cream is L.O.V.E.

Look at the richness and smoothness of the liquor.
Magnífico. Fabuloso. Aah, amor; Bailey es el amor. >=]
Would some kind soul get this as my Christmas Present? XD

5. My note pad hath now become my sketch pad.
Doodles after doodles.
PR's such a bore.
It bites.
It kills.
It's...dry.
Hence, doodles are born.

I want more tattoos. *whines*

One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.

Varsity - Baby Steps

Oh yes, definitely tryna start over again.
It's high time for reformation.

xX Shaun K.

2009-10-22T08:07:00.000-07:00

I found the perfect song! YAY!
And I'm posting up the lyrics here.
WHOOO!!

Everytime I get to look upon your face
I feel like my soul is dying
Everytime I reach for you its empty space
I feel like my heart is crying for you
I hate to be away from you but I'll..
I'll understand if you can't give me all I've dreamed of
But I'll still be waiting, cause I can't get over you..

When we were in love..
You told me I was your angel
You were the one
What can I do
What do I say
You took our forever and ever away
Away.. away..
You took our forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. forever away..)
You took our forever and ever away

It's like I'm stuck in one place
I just keep going around
I can't keep wondering around so i just..
Took my heart up off the plate
Cause I continue to cry
I don't know why I keep trying.. to fit a picture in this frame
You just break it everyday (but I can't get over you)
My mind is telling me to leave
In my heart I just don't know what to do
Cause I can't get over you

When we were in love..
You told me you were my angel
And I was the one
What can I do
What do I say
You took my forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. ever away..)
You took our forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. ever away..)
You took our forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. ever away..)
You took out forever and ever away

So how can I love you
When you made me believe that it was only me.. me..
How can I trust you when you deserved to leave
What made you lie to me.. me..
How can I touch you
I feel it in your touch
There's no room for us
How can I want you (uh huh)
When I deserved to be with someone who truly loves me.. yeah.. yeah..

I'm talking on a daily
She got me goin' crazy
My baby ain't the same as
As all these people sayin'
And I ain't really patient
But I'm debatin', waitin',
Cause she be hesitatin',
And she gon' slip a mistake in
Thinkin' I put my faith in
How could this help the datin'
She ain't participatin,
And if I'm not mistaken
Late at night the phone vibratin'
Translation nigga's cakin'
My trust is slowly breakin'
So I'm the one that's breakin'
Was it the weather baby
You said forever baby
And through the rain and the storm I was your shelter baby
I'm looking at your picture,
This is my coldest winter,
I'm feeling like december
I'm feeling like december

Forever and ever away.. ever away..

This numbness within me just keep increasing with the passing days.
Maybe, just maybe, I'm finally able to say no to you?

xX Shaun K.

2009-10-20T02:34:00.000-07:00

Great, I've got squiggly lines in my head...again.

Fcuk. =.=

This isn't suppose to happen.

No.

It's suppose to be a "No, NEVER" thing.

Sigh.

xX Shaun K.

2009-10-14T09:46:00.000-07:00

Well, I couldn't resist posting up another post.
So yeah x)

Looking back if we had one more night to spend,
I would steal every second I would never let it end,
Like the taste of your lips what I'd give to drink you in,

I will always remember and I know that it goes with me,
I will never leave this part of you behind,

What I miss overall is a smile I can't replace,
'Cause it starts in your eyes and,
It filled up all the space in my heart,
I know I will always remember and
I know that it goes with me,
I will never leave this part of you behind,

With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on,
I want to but I wanted you,
Now you stay in my head,
I'm not over you yet,
I try to but I wanted you,

Make no mistake I'm here in this place,
And I'm waiting around for you,
And I can't help it I'm still searching,
For some way to get through,

I will always remember...

Ryan Cabrera - With You Gone

xX Shaun K.

2009-10-14T08:10:00.000-07:00

I can't bear to part,
Nor can I bear to forget,
Memories cease bringing meanings,
But, why can't I stop my futile efforts?
Reasons are what I need,
How do I reason when everything feels dead?
To sacrifice this festering heart,
I definitely can't wait.

20 more hours to go...
Am I just imagining the little sparks of fire?
Or am I still stuck?

xX Shaun K.

2009-10-09T09:18:00.000-07:00

Found this somewhere on the internet. XD

Once upon a time, a long time ago, I fell in love. And there was laughing and funny breaths and happiness. There was much rejoicing. And then, SHUT! Over. Gone. Dead. Completely cut off. Disconnected. The taste still fresh in my mouth. The smell still linger on my skin. The feeling left in my fingertips. But I can't get that feeling back. I may spend my entire life trying to get back into that Polaroid. Fighting all the way. The best thing I have ever known. Even now, years later, anytime I come close to it I want to dive in. Sink or swim. I don't care. I would give anything to be even in the room next to it. Across the street. A breath away. Remembering what I never let myself forget. Looking someone in the eye and knowing; another time, another place, it is right there. In front of me. Within reach. Just open my fingers and wrap them around it. Hold it tightly. And never let it go. Never. Never. I fought. I fought hard. But only with myself. Sometimes I wonder if I should have fought harder. With her. With it. Tried to work it out. It all made sense for about fifteen seconds. Just enough time to say, “You're right”. “What the hell was I thinking?” Why didn't I say . . . . something. My line of thinking was…if she doesn't want it, I don't want to push it. Why try to keep her where she doesn't want to be? But she did want to be there. She had to. She was happy. There were nights I cried. When we were together and then I took her home and on the way home I cried. Not because I was sad, or even missed her already, but because I was happy. So happy I couldn't contain myself. I talked to God. Whether I believed in him or not. And I said thank you. Over and over. Again and again. I couldn't believe it was real. That I could actually touch her. Kiss her. Look into her perfect green eyes and see myself. But I could. I had seen her before. IN the coffee shop. And I said to myself, I would give up everything if she would even turn my way. She was light years beyond me. Another plane. Another class. Confident, beautiful, at peace. So sure. Not for me. I couldn't even dream it. No way could I ever make it real. Did she feel what I felt? I have to believe she did. If I didn't it would be so hard to breathe. So hard to get up in the morning. So hard to be. No one will be her. No one will have those green eyes. No one will have that one lock of hair hiding all her secrets. And no one, ever again (shudder) will make me whole. Not like that. I'm scared. I'm so scared. What if it is real? What if never? What if I'm right? Do you ever wonder, do you ever ask yourself, “Can I live without love??” .“Can I open my eyes?” I'm afraid to. There is a feeling. You know it. This trembling completeness. This warmth. That makes everything big. And you are ten feet tall all the time. Everyone is looking at you. You are the one. The one she chose. The one she calls when everything is wrong, and when everything is right! She is the one who reaches out for you. For me. She once said, “I need you.” I was done. That was what I was looking for all my life. Those words. For something so pure as this creature to need ME! Could not be real. Could not be my life. But it was. Of course, it WAS! It isn't anymore. It is gone. So far away. And it will never be there again. I see little pieces of it everywhere. A glance, a smile, a touch. I feel desperate. I feel alone. So much out there. But I only want to hear one thing. Not sure what. But I will know. If I ever get the chance. I will stretch out my fingers, grasp it tightly, and NEVER LET IT GO! But till then; I will be here. With my open hand. And my desperate heart. And my cold skin. Slowly, regrettably, forgetting just enough that I can survive from one day to the next. To remember is to suffer. To see what was and then look at what is. To hear a voice, feel my heart stop. Watch my breath stutter in the cold. She… She can be almost anyone. She can read me like a book. I will open to any page for anyone. Cover to cover. Nothing to hide. Not the fear, the pain, or the hopelessness. It is all there. Large print ; easy to read. Secrets dissolve in tears. Dissipating into honesty, innocence, need. I was lost and now I'm found. I was blind but now I see. Maybe I don't want to...

xX Shaun K.

2009-10-07T07:28:00.000-07:00

Okayyy.
So my blog died...again.
Just like the owner. x)
Oh well.
Not much to update about actually.
Hmm maybe I'll write a little of what I'm feeling now?

So, we prove that we were crazy when we decided to give some unknown driver a free show in the form of tecktonik and lala poses in Pulau Tikus. XD
It was fun though, to be able to bring smiles/ laughter to people's faces. XD
Ahh scratch that.
That was totally a random thought.

Okay laaa.
I shall start ranting now that my blog is set to private.
Muahahaha!
That means YOU can't read what I wrote.
Oh man. XD

Riiggghhhhttt...

So I've been feeling a little hopeless ever since I found out that the person that you love with all your heart is none other than...him. =.=
Died over and over again just by watching how close the two of you were in college.
Oh well, 2 years isn't that long now is it? =(
I guess I could live with all these shit. *sigh*
AND, it really broke me when I heard that you hate yourself a lot for hurting me.
Girl, you shouldn't be hating yourself when I'm the one that brings this pain upon myself. *sigh*
But to act indifferent I must.
As much as I wanna be close to you, I can't.
I see his shadow in your eyes.
That's why whenever you are near, I'll just walk away to be on my own.
It's too much to look into those eyes.
Too unbearable to look your way coz all I see is him being next to you, making you laugh.
ARGHHH!!
To hell with these shitty feelings man.
I tried to get over you, you know?
Tried and failed so many times that I'm just so sick and tired of trying anymore.
AND, I'm definitely sick and tired of reading your plurks about him.
It only spells more heartaches for me.
Damn me. =.=
I can't complete with your walking checklist.
Never did stand a chance from the very start.

I think I'll just stop here before it leads to something else more...private.

This is something I found so yeah, I'll just post it up. x)

I miss you, I need you. If only you knew the pain I feel when I'm not with you and I'm thinking about you all day which never makes the pain go away. The pain I have knowing that this might be my last day, my last breath, that you may be my last kiss, my last love. The pain you put me through, I hope you never have to feel because the pain makes you not want to feel.

xX Shaun.

2009-07-19T09:57:00.000-07:00

Remember us in this moment
Cos what I'm about to say might hurt
So try to take a mental picture
So you'd never forget the way we were
Cos the truth is more then i know you can take
That's why I'll understand if you can't stay

Cos I lied when I said that I don't care anymore
Cos everywhere I go, everything I do
Takes me right back to you, gets me right back to ya
And I tried but I don't have the strength to pretend anymore
I close my eyes, put your memories alive
And I'm right back, yes I'm right back to ya
I guess I still belong to you (still belong to you)

You were right when you told me
That I would regret the choice I made
(deep down everything belongs to you)
But through my eyes I just couldn't see it
Til the sky was turning grey
(deep down everything belongs to you)
It all fell apart when I did it my way
So i'll understand if you can't stay

Cos lied when I said that I don't care anymore
Cos everywhere I go, everything i do
Takes me right back to you, gets me right back to ya
And i tried but I don't have the strength to pretend anymore
I close my eyes, put your memories alive
And i'm right back, yes I'm right back to ya
I guess i still belong..

Me coming back home is a hard pill to swallow
Cos i said that I'd never
Need you the moment I walked away
I find you're always the one who I wanna run to
Cos you're still the one I belong to
(yeah you're the one I belong to)

2009-07-10T08:28:00.000-07:00

You'll never ever be able to know how much it's hurting me to go on this way, do you?
You'll never know how hard it is for me to let you go, do you?
You'll definitely will never know how it tears me apart to read your plurks about him do you?
You'll never know that I'll bleed just to show you how much you meant to me, do you?

Why am I such a bloody fool for you, R? Why?
If I could turn back time, I would never had made the mistake of knowing you and falling so bloody hard for you.

I wish I could just ran away from this place coz everything just reminds me of you.

I'm so fucked up.

xX Shaun.

2009-06-29T09:10:00.000-07:00

Confessions 101
by Shaun K.

Dedicated to the one person I'm lucky to have known.

Being with you has never been easy,
For you were cold like ice to me,
Your actions caused a chasm within me; always filled with doubt,
Always filled with questions,
Am I not doing enough?
I took the blame when you said I was being cold to you,
But you were the one drifting away
on that perilous Sea of Drifting Apart,
How could I not be depressed?
How could I not be wondering?
How could I not be...angry?
I kept my feelings inside; for I was always to hurt you my angel
sent from above,
Cold your actions may be but truly you are the best
thing that has ever happened to me,
But I was stupid; bloody stupid,
Looking back,
I couldn't believe the fool I was,
I never meant to say that I
don't love you anymore,
If I could make you understand the emotions
within me; would you forgive me
for saying those accursed words?
Anger condemned me,
Regrets haunted me to this day,
I bleed more than you could ever imagine; bleeding
for my fool's mistakes,
Bleeding for letting you go without
fighting till the very end to make you stay,
Tears of blood I cried; you'll never see or know,
A thousand apologies I wish to say to you,
But will it ever heal the rift that I've caused?
Will it ever bring us back to where
we've been before; where love was intense and sweet,
You've move on; my human eyes could see that,
It tears me apart to know you've move on,
Never once did I blame you for that; never...
If you ever habour any hatred for me,
I will never ever back away from it,
For I will accept it face on,
One thing's for sure,
You'll never know how much it
hurts me to say I don't love you anymore...

I loved you,
With all my heart,
And that's true,
Stuck on you; ditto that,
It has never change,
My love for you could only
grow stronger; never once weaker,
Tell me, how could I let go of a
wonderful person like you?
I gave you all of me,
For I believe you deserved
to be love deeply and be
appreciated for the wonderful person you are,
2 years; 24 months of unsaid words,
730 days of missing you miserably,
Seconds after seconds,
Minutes after minutes,
I pray fervently for a chance
to make things right again,
Will you ever come back?
It runs in my head over and over again,
But you and I both know the answer; No
I could live with that; could I?

Your smile is enough to melt the
ice within me,
Your eyes are beyond mesmerizing,
I could look into them forever; over and over,
Drowning in the love we once shared,
I'm stuck in the past; replaying the time
you smiled at me when you said 'Yes',
God, how I missed it so much,
I never regretted the one year of pain and hurt
I had to endured to make you mine,
2 months or so is short,
Some might say,
But it was the best 2 months of my life,
Of finally being able to be with the
one I loved with all my heart, my being,
Friends are what we could be now,
All of my willpower is what it takes
to be holding back these feelings when you
are around,
It sucks tenfold when you had already moved on
while I'm still stuck here with my profound
love for you,
Move on; those are the advices they gave me,
I tried, tried and TRIED!
In the end, it all came back to you,
No one but you, baby girl.

I guess I'll always be watching from the side lines; finding for ways to move on, to let go.

How many years will it take me I wonder?

How long more must I cry these tears before you return or before I could let go and get on with my life?

2009-06-26T06:20:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOD!
I can't believe that Michael Jackson is DEAD. *cries*
I grew up listening to his songs and now he's dead!?
NOOOOOOOO!!!
My greatest idol in the world is dead.

Okay enough of that.
This is gonna be a post filled with poems.
Some of these poems are from my previous post but I'm reposting them so Yee Lin can read them and give me comments on them. XD

I wrote this poem in class today.
Not the best one but heck, it's been so long since I last written a decent poem.

The stars and the moon
seemed so bright when your with me,
After you left,
Colours had no
meaning to me,
Brightness is only a word
in the dictionary,
As I lay under the blanket of stars tonight,
I wish you could be here to share
this night's beauty with me,
But nothing compares to your beauty,
Not the stars, not even the moon,
Girl, you are way too beautiful,
Your lips are what I yearned for,
Your heart is where I wish to place myself into,
Your arms I want to be in,
Your eyes are the quicksand I want to be swallowed in,
And your love is the one drug that I need for my high,
Could we ever possibly have another chance again,
To dance this dance of love?

Suck-ish, yes?
Here's another one.

How I wish to see your face one again,
How I wish to see the smile that got my
heart fluttering,
How I wish I could hear your voice; even just for a second,
How I wish to hear your infectious laughter on
those dull days,
How I wish that I wasn't so addicted to the love
you once gave me,
How I wish that every song I hear wouldn't
remind me of you,
How I wish that I could stop faking not loving you
and just be over you for real.

My masterpiece. XD
WELL, I'm just exaggerating la.

There you stand,
In all your glory; lo and behold,
So painstakingly beautiful; the beauty I yearned to touch,
Steps I had taken; none too far none too near,
Away from the untarnished jewel of my eye; I longed,
Far too long had my frail being besotted by the brilliance you radiate,
Yet you are like heroine; I am addicted beyond hope,
If I had to risk a friendship to make these damned feelings gone; I will,
For I'm done building walls after walls and masquerading,
The pain of losing you still runs clear in my veins like venom,
The venom that will be the death of me someday,
Forgive me for my whines about my disability to move on; it annoys me to the very core so to speak,
I wish for a cure for these sleepless nights; for I am at my most vulnerable,
The memories plays on like a bad movie; black and white, muted,
When the world sleeps the night away; my mind takes a peek at your image like a Peeping Tom on the run,
And it is during this time am I deranged enough to put pointless and senseless words to pen and paper,
Putting the most discussed topic in ink; You,
And so darling watch me dance; with steps none too far none too near,
Pray, bear with my dance annoying as it may be,
'Till my disability flows to yesterdays that won't return; till my whines drown in the sounds of the past,
Until then my darling, let this drug-induced fool dance.

And the last poem for this post.

I wished I've gotten over you in
the year before we got together,
So I wouldn't have to pick up the
pieces that are broken once again,
Yes, I am still very much captivated
by you; that's my confession,
Forgive me for pushing you away at time; know
that I'm afraid to fall like I did before,
Constantly I've been thinking; wondering if I
should move on or wait like a fool,
Or maybe, just maybe it's time to close these
open arms; walk away from this mess I've choose
to fall into,
Forget about 'us'; there's only 'you' and 'me' now...

xX Shaun.

2009-06-17T08:29:00.000-07:00

SO, I'm back to square one.
Stuck and never moving forward.
How many times did I said that I will move on and embrace come what may?
The fact remains, the feelings that I always kept buried remains there.
Not gone as I wish it be but there, arising slowly from the walls that contained it.
Seeping out into my very being.
Love, pain, anger and most of all JEALOUSY seeks to condemn me to be cold towards you all the time.
You might read this and shake your head; curse all you want about my inability to move on and my damnable feelings, my damnable lies that are suppose to rot in hell; ignore me till the very end.
Truth is, I couldn't stand bottling everything up and then explode and you're at the receiving end of it.
I never enjoyed being cold towards you, trust me.
I never meant to but jealousy is something I have no control over.
Yes, I'm being jealous over the wrong things but I'm only a human.
What could I possibly do?
Move on? Hah, 2 years was an awful long time for me to do that and look where I am today.
Still stuck on the same spot.
Anger and jealousy only seek to destroy me.

Maybe, I hadn't realize that my infatuation over you has turn to a disease that I have no cure for.
Maybe, I never really want to move on?
Maybe it's cause that's something special about you that no one else seems to have?
Damn, you ARE special.
You might not know it but those that truly loved you will know.
You do have that certain way to brighten up someone's day just with words alone. *smiles*
And your charisma and smiles, damn it's just so hard not to be addicted to it.
And your eyes...shiiittttt, totally mesmerizing.
And and, your vulnerability totally got me head over heels.
Of all things, your vulnerability. *rolls eyes*
But because of that, it made me love you even more coz I don't ever want you to feel the things that you aren't suppose to feel; only unconditional love.
I really want to thank you for giving me the chance to love you the way you deserve and letting me appreciate how special a person you are. =D
Though it wasn't for long but still, it was kinda worth the wait.
Hmm.

Ahhhh damn damn damn!
From an emo post to gloating over you.
I don't blame you for the geli-ness or the awkwardness that will come upon reading this.
Shit shit shit shit shit shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit....
Get a grip on reality Shauni! *shakes head vigorously*
Slap me please, maybe it might make me feel better.

Damn, I can't believe that I wrote this here.
I never want you to know but at the same time, I want you to know too.
AAARGH!!
I wanna say I'm sorry.
I know I've been apologizing and then doing the same thing all over again.
I'm trying to repent but I really meant all those apologies.
Forgive me for writing all these crap but it's necessary for me to feel better.
I'm not gonna take your feelings into consideration for this is about making me feel better.

How do I get close
When she looks like an angel
A moment of her time just seems impossible to me
It’s hard to find the words, to get to know this stranger
I’m scared of what she’ll say if what I say sounds incomplete
And it feels like we belong together
Can someone tell me where do I start

Cuz, I can’t keep on feelin’ the way I do
I can’t keep on, hiding my heart from you
I got to say something before
Someone else comes through,
I can’t keep on loving you,
From a distance

She’s always on my mind, there’s no room left for thinking
I’m tired of waiting slowly fading at least I’m happy now
Cuz I’m running out of time, and I feel this ship is sinking
The doors are closing I am frozen I need her around

And it feels like we belong together
Can someone tell me where do I start

Cuz, I can’t keep on feelin’ the way I do
And I can’t keep on, hiding my heart from you
I got to say something before
Someone else comes through,
I can’t keep on loving you,
From a distance
From a distance
From a distance
From a distance

I can’t hide
I can’t keep on feelin’ the way I do
And I can’t keep on, hiding my heart from you
I got to say something before
Someone else comes through,
Cuz I can’t keep on loving you,
I can’t keep on loving you from a distance.

- Elliot Yamin - Can't Keep Loving You (From a Distance)

I seriously gotta purge my brains and heart.
Damn, I'm the shittiest person on Earth now.

xX Shaun.

2009-06-15T09:09:00.000-07:00

I'm not the same person, I was before
And I realize, I need a change
My heart is heavy, my legs are weakened
From the baggage that you bring
Woah

I just gotta scrub
This pain away
So you wanna be my rehab
Let it drain the past that we had
I'm so sick of all the dirty memories
All these pictures haunting me
Forcing me to therapy

Washing my hands of you
I'm so glad that we're through

I Should’ve listened, to all my close friends
When they told me, you were no good
Well shame on me , twice for staying
I let this song speak my remedy

My chest started breakin'
The hurt started fading (away)
And then that’s when I knew
That's when I knew
I was through with you

- Jackie Boyz - Washing My Hands (Off You)

Maybe I should wash every trace of you clean.
Damn shit, I can't always be breaking the promises I bound myself to.
This isn't right. *shakes head*

xX Shaun.

2009-06-14T08:19:00.000-07:00

Hmm I'm in one of those mood again.
Bloody hell.
I've gotta bleach my heart; burn away all those traces of weakness.

But anyway, I've found some darn good poems so I wanna post them up here.
With credits to the authors of course.

I read this poem in the newspaper one day and I took an instant liking to it.

I believe I've been mistaken- that girl is taken,
I thought that I could let her go,
Let her be on her own,
But I found out,
That I can't do without her touch, her kiss, her love,
She is more precious than a treasure trove,
I can't believe that I made the mistake,
I thought I could fake,
Not loving her, and letting her go,
But now I know,
That I've been mistaken,
And there's no sense in faking,
My love for her is more than I knew,
And now I know what I have to do,
Please let me have one more chance,
So that we can dance,
The one special dance,
The one called love.

Written by Ryan A.

You Do Something To Me

You do something to me - something deep inside
I’m hanging on the wire - for a love I’ll never find
You do something wonderful - then chase it all away
Mixing my emotions - that throws me back again
Hanging on the wire, I’m waiting for my change
I’m dancing through the fire, just to catch a flame -
an’ feel real again

Hanging on the wire, I’m waiting for the change
I’m dancing through the fire, just to catch a flame -
an’ feel real again

You do something to me - somewhere deep inside
I’m hoping to get close to - a peace I cannot find -

Dancing through the fire - just to catch a flame
Just to get close to, just close enough -
To tell you that…..

You do something to me - something deep inside…

Hmm this is written by some blogger whose name I do not know so anyway, if you have the time, do check out her blog.
Midnightserenade

Right, that's about it.
Will update on the shisha outing when I have the chance.

xX Shaun.

2009-06-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

Went to KDU with Zingwei today as I needed some letters from the college for the EPF loan.
Fishy Adam a.k.a. Nadia a.k.a. my dramatical mummy, came down to the Students Registration Office.

Me; Nadia

Hello, where are you? (excited voice) XD
I'm at the SRO with Zingwei.
SRO? SRO, SRO (mutters to herself) What's that?
The Students Registration Office la! >.<"

Oh! Where's that?

First floor. (almost slaps forehead. LOL)

That girl don't even know where the SRO is.
Haiyo, 3 months studying there edi some more don't where that office is.

I got pretty pissed off with those women at the SRO.

My mum went there once to ask for the letters needed for the EPF loan.

They told her that they'll call me up for the letters but 3 weeks later, still no phone call.

I wouldn't have lost my temper if those two weren't so rude.

I know that I'm just a student but... Bloody hell man. GRR!

After that, Zingwei and I bugged Nadia to take us around the campus.

She did it grudgingly though though cause according to her, on our first day of orientation, we will be taken around the campus.

We started exploring the first floor and Nadia showed us the Pastry Kitchen and then the Cafeteria.

Two students approached Nadia while we were at the Le Cafe area to tell her bout their set lunches.
Zingwei ordered the Roasted Chicken set.

Both of us wanted to try the student's cooking so we ordered one set. XD

We went to the 4th floor as the upper floors are for the Nursing students.

She claimed those floors were creepy.

Saw Kevin as we walked towards the Library.

He took us to the Drama and Music Room just to show us how it looks like.

We left Kevin and we went to the library; I insisted on not going in though. XD

Nadia was practically screaming to her friends at one floor to another floor when we were at the old wing.

Macam her own house like that.

Zingwei and I were looking at one another in an amused way when Nadia suddenly scream like a banshee. LOL!

After that, we went to the Graphic Design floor.

Actually, I can't remember the Graphic Design floor is in the 4th floor or not.

I just can't remember whether we went to the art gallery first or bumping into Kevin.

Sigh, short term memory loss, what to do?

Tch tch.

Anyway, the art gallery boasts some interesting artworks from the students.

Didn't take any picture though.

We went to the Hotel Management floor next and you should seen how we looked at the mock Suite room.

Like never see before a suite before.

After we were done exploring, we went down to the cafeteria to wait for the food Zingwei ordered.

Talked and talked until Nadia had to run off for her class in the Pastry Kitchen.

Reminds me of the times we used to stay back after school to just talk and talk.

Wished that I could turn back time sometimes but life goes on.

The memories will forever be preserved in that special place in my heart.

*smiles to self*

So, Zingwei and I had a little father-daughter moment.

Precious. =D

Lmao.

Turns out that we were both keeping something from someone until we realised that we had already told that someone bout it ourselves and did not inform one another bout it.

Wait, that sentence came out to be a little weird.

Oh well, my English is rotting like an apple.

When the salad came, I was like o.O because, no offense intended, it looked really un-appetizing. The main course was a bit plain but it's not bad la.

Then again, it's cooked by the students so I can't complain now, can I? ;)

After lunch, I dropped Zingwei home.

My steel baby is really, really dirty now as I'm always lazy when it comes to washing the car.

I really gotta wash that car for real one of these days.

At long last, a decent update this time.

Gosh, I'm so proud of myself.

AHAHAHA!

Aisheh, posting my picture up for no reason.
Confirm vain dah. XD

Till then.

xX Shaun.

2009-05-27T09:20:00.000-07:00

Kristine Mirelle - Let Go

Maybe I just thought I had you here
I thought that you would not go anywhere
I abused my position
And I didn't care
And now that you no longer turn to me
And it seems that you got over me
I can hardly breathe
You no longer need me
I'm just sorry I found out late
But all the choices I Made
I thought of me
And not how it'd be to watch you walk away
I know I'll never make it right
But everyday I try
In hopes you might come back
You're where my heart's at
I have to find a way

And everytime I think of you
It's hard for me to think of what I can do
I used to have you here beside me
I just want you here beside me baby
How can the sun keep shinin'
When my whole body's cryin
I know I never told you why
I need you in my life

Melissa Smith - I Believed

I believed what you said,
But love doesn't have a meaning
When you hurt me so bad
Just threw it all away
You knew I was scared
To once more let you get that close to me
Despite what you did
I believed

Oh, I'm not at all emo ;)

xX Shaun.

2009-05-18T08:11:00.000-07:00

There's nothing more stupid in this world then waiting on something that will never be in your grasp, again.
Why is that despite the pain that will render us senseless, we keep coming back for more; wanting more of this euphoric pain?
Is there any euphoria, any addiction in wallowing ourselves in hopeless sadness and pain?
I wonder sometimes...
Yet, as always the answers eluded me just when I thought I had them in my grasp.
We always say "I'd do it all over again" when given the chance but truly, do these chances come upon us often?
Moving on, letting go; nothing is ever that hard.
For some, it's just a breeze.
They say that our first love is always the most beautiful but the most painful of them all coz it never really last.
Ironic isn't it that when we first know love for the first time, we end up welcoming in the unbearable pain that will last for months and maybe years.
We will definitely move on one day but there will always be that special place in our heart kept and sealed for our first love.
Some say even though the river of time continues it's steady flow, when their first love seek to return into their lives, they'd take them back just to feel that special bond once again.

I'd best stop here before more nonsense seeks it's place in this.
I wish to write more but this is enough for one night.

Why does love always feel like a battlefield?
Jordin Sparks - Battlefield

A little bit of cheekiness can lighten up the darkness clouding the heart sometimes.
xX Shaun.

2009-05-18T07:31:00.000-07:00

I haven't been online much these few days.
One, I find nothing to do when I'm online.
Two, I still find nothing to do when I'm online.
Three, plainly put, I need a life.

Music addiction time baby!!

Latest song addiction(s), Kevin Rudolf's Welcome to the World.
Hell man, this song kick-assa. XD

Oh yeah, KEVIN RUDOLFFFF! AHAHAHA!

Welcome to the World *
All the time that you were gone,
I thought about how things went wrong
Now you're coming down to earth
Ok, hello, welcome to the world

Gimme a Sign
Well I walk through the valley of
The shadow of death.
And I dance with the Devil
but I got no regrets.
He told me next time your in
town drop me a line.

Oh, just gimme a sign.
Let the world fall apart.
Just gimme a sign
don´t leave me in the dark.

Livin It Up
And I can't speak, not that I ever wanted to
I just dream cause, well, living is hard
Don't pity me, just keep moving along
I will be living it up, living it up, living it up

No Way Out
I told my self I believed it
But who was I kidding
Out of these eyes I could see it
But it's all a lie the end is near I can feel it
Ya it's comin around but now
there's no doubt it's settled

She Can Get It *
Yeah she don't stop
She working' it all about
She moves it around the clock
And she can get it, sh-sh-she can get it
Don't quit, the way that she moves it
She's making me lose my grip
And she can get it, sh-sh-she can g-g-get it
And there's no no way out no way out

I Song *
So I'm singing
I want it all but I take just a little
I feel her touch then I need some more
We get high just to try
and relieve the pain
But a voice inside reminds
me there must be a better way.

Songs marked with * are highly recommended.

NEXT,

I Know You Want Me (Calle Ocho)
I know you want me
You know I want cha (want cha)
one-two-three-four
Uno-do'-tres-cuatro

Okay enough of the songs.
Just a very brief update for the past two days.

22nd May

So, it's the so-called innocent and holy babi's birthday.
She came back for like two days and girl, you finally got your wish.
The Great Shaun was almost flat for you. XD
AHHH Heineken!! LOL
If it weren't for something/someone, I wouldn't have drank that much and complain like there's no tomorrow.
Tch tch, such an unhealthy form of escapism.
Anyways, no pictures as my f*cked up mms is giving me problems.
*curses*
Xin Yi drove all the way to Batu Ferringhi and good thing, she wasn't high. XD

23rd May

Went bowling and damn, it was fun especially when Goh Goh is there.
That girl ar, damn funny la the way she bowl. XD
Too bad, we did not take any videos of her bowling.

Alright, I'm much too lazy to write more.
Tak ada the mood to update.
And orientation's in two weeks time.
Damn...

xX Shaun.

2009-04-23T06:14:00.000-07:00

Right, just felt like blogging so once again a not-so-close-to-a-perfect-post.
Yes, a nonsensical sentence but what the heck?
My English is rotting just like a bad apple.

1. Yes, so I failed my freaking JPJ exam.
Bloody car.
Maybe I should puncture the tyres of that car.
I'll be doing everyone a big favour. XD

2. Work SUCKS.
True, there's always my ever laughing partner, Ee Va to bring some joy to my life but still there's just a dear fella that seems to suck it all away.
I'm almost beyond tolerating that dear fella.
I've got a million words to name that dear fella but then I won't sink to that level.
That dear fella deserve nothing more than those names but like I said I won't sink to that level no matter how pissed off I am.
So there, nothing more but dear fella for that person. =]

3. I've been having unbearable headaches almost everyday.
It's either those unbearable headaches or a wave of giddiness or sometimes both.
Hmm maybe there's something wrong with my head.
Better to tell mummy dearest when she comes back to Penang next week.
Heheh, I can bolot her to get me more books to read. XD

4. My latest song addiction: Tami Chynn feat. Voicemail - Watch Me Wine.
Definitely an addictive song.
Go on, go listen to this song.

I'll stop here.
Got nothing left to write down.
Maybe one day, I'll be able to post a perfect update?
But till then...

I bid this blog adieu for the time being.

xX Shaun.

2009-04-14T03:38:00.000-07:00

Hmm my old bloggie lacks updates.
Well, my pathetic attempt at an update again. Lol.

I'll just write whatever I've had done these past few weeks or whatever that crosses my mind.

1. Spent a whole lot of money this month. Damn

2. Finally gotten myself a new guitar bag. The old one is showing some symptom of being worn out now. Well, it's been under the rain for countless times. Can't blame me, I'm an avid walker be it rain or shine. XD

3. Finally gotten myself a new pair of shoes from Echo Park. Been telling myself that I would get a new pair of shoes over the months and I finally got one. Gosh, I feel so proud of myself. Haha.

4. Work, as usual, sucks. Too boring but luckily I have my ever shinning sun/full of laughing gas, Ee Va. Her laughter is too infectious to be ignored.

5. I can finally drive but not legally though. I've yet to pass the JPJ exam. Wish me luck and please pray that I don't panic till I couldn't drive. *prays hard*

6. Almost had a taste of insanity. The complexity of these emotions that I feel sometimes is enough to make lose whatever reasoning I have. God, please take these emotions away. I don't need to feel them all over again.

7. Still harboring hopes of being a music producer. An absurd dream but it's no sin to dream big. XD

8. Spent some quality with the dearies. Have yet to some quality time with the other dearies.

9. I'm still itching for a new guitar. I have more than enough but it's a sick addiction of mine to get more and more. Damn, I'm weird.

10. I want to learn how to play the guitar. I suck badly at it.

11. The past calls on like a faint, haunting siren. Need I say more to what and whom I'm referring to? Guess not, it's an obvious thing. *shakes head*

Alright now that I've said what I want to say, it's time for a little slideshow. XD

Sometimes some human can be such geniuses.

And yet another fine example of their smart-ness.

My pyramid of towels. Built by your's truly, ahem, Shaun.

Standing tall and majestic.

Building a towel pyramid can be taxing so time for a little break underneath the table.

When my hair was longer, I plant coconut trees under the ever vigilant CCTV. *sings*

And, smile for both the CCTV(s) and the camera.

When boredom kicks in, Mr. Bingo rushes in to save the day! Three cheers for Mr. Bingo! Hip hip HURRAY!

Our nice score sheet. I lost though.

Angels are a beings of beauty and perfection but when it comes to drawing them, sadly, their beauty and perfection are...distorted.

I draw shitty things and it rings truer than anything in this world. Even my handwriting is shitty.

When you're pissed off, just draw stick figures.

My angel cum devil. Products of boredom while working.

Wai Kit can definitely show off his curves. Way better than runway models.

Since Ecoparadise is all about being environmental friendly, Michelle and I did our part by switching off the lights and air con during Earth Hour.

My too pathetic attempt at sulking. XD

Seriously, I put those lalas to shame.

Rawr! I'm the next Cookie Monster. HAHA

My new tattoo. I'mma proud Leo. =P

I'm ever ready to be gay/lala for the camera. Cheese!

It won't be me if I don't end my post with the lyrics of a song that I'm currently addicted to.
Ladies and gentlemen, I give you...

The Offspring - Kristy, Are You Doing Okay

There’s a moment in time
And it’s stuck in my mind
Way back, when we were just kids

Cause your eyes told the tale
Of an act of betrayal
I knew that somebody did

Oh, waves of time
Seem to wash away
The scenes of our crimes
But for you this never ends

Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy are you doing okay?
A rose that won’t bloom
Winter’s kept you
Don’t waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away

Though the marks on your dress
Had been neatly repressed
I knew that something was wrong
And I should have spoke out
And I’m so sorry now
I didn’t know
Cause we were so young

Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind
And it never goes away

There’s a moment in time
And it’s stuck in my mind
Way back, when we were just kids

Cause your eyes told the tale
Of an act of betrayal
I knew that somebody did

Oh, waves of time
Seem to wash away
The scenes of our crimes
But for you this never ends

Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy are you doing okay?
A rose that won’t bloom
Winter’s kept you
Don’t waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away

Though the marks on your dress
Had been neatly repressed
I knew that something was wrong
And I should have spoke out
And I’m so sorry now
I didn’t know
Cause we were so young

Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind
And it never goes away

The flames ignited. And it never goes away girl.
It's too late to fight it. You pushed my heart away girl.
And it's got a hole and it's breaking me down.
Now when I think about it.
My heart gave you everything.
You tore my heart away.
Every time I come your way.
You push me further away…

xX Shaun.

2009-04-01T06:18:00.000-07:00

I've found a new music addiction and it's none other than the oh-so hot Jordyn Taylor yo!!

Haven't heard of her?

Shame on you! Tch tch.

Quick, go on Youtube and listen to her songs! XD

You see?
I told ya she was hot. LOL!

Songs from Jordyn Taylor that you should definitely check out.

1. Over You (My current obsession)
2. Looking For Love
3. Strong
4. You Make Me Mad
5. Stop Playing With Me
6. After Shock
7. What If
8. I'm Sorry (feat. Sean Michael)
9. Hostage

There's still a number of song from her that I still haven't listen to yet so for now 9 songs are enough. XD

We been through much, I dont want us to end right here
I cant stand the thought of watching us disappear
I put my all, my heart, my soul, my everything ..
into us, I just cant see it so, let this be,
Got me tripping cause I'm in this craziness
Should we leave it? But I'm caught up in your mess
but we drifted, far from where we used to be
wish I could let go, but I cant seem to get over you...

xX Shaun.

2009-03-26T19:38:00.000-07:00

Right, it's been such a long time since I updated my blog.
I've been pretty busy and not to mention lazy. XD

I'll start from 1st of March since it's the closest thing I have to an update.
Other than that, I've been stuck at work unable to hang out with my dear friends. Lol.

1st March

My first day working at 7 in the bloody morning.
It's TOO BLOODY early to be working man!
I was so bloody sleepy.
So I did everything that needs to be done for Kim as I was gonna crash if I don't do anything.
Not only do I have to wake up so bloody early, it was really, really busy as customers kept walking in non-stop like ants.
It was total chaos that time.
Ee Va was blur beyond belief as she had to find place to slot in the customers. XD

Things started to slow down around 1pm so I could relax for a while before the drowsiness starts to kick in again.
I prefer it be busy though as time passes quickly in just a blink of an eye.

My mum fetched me from work around 4.
Went home and slept like a log before going to my nephew's lst birthday.
His parents did his birthday dinner one day earlier.

The name of the restaurant together with the address and contact number. XD

I don't what soup is this. I only have one picture of the food as everybody was digging into the food when they served it.

My cousin a.k.a. my nephew's mum.

My crazy cousin with her boyo.

Random Shots

As I mentioned earlier, I was too lazy tp take pictures of the other dishes and besides that, everyone was digging into their meal already.
So I gave up taking pictures and joined in their eating reverie. XD
So that's about it for my pathetic attempt at a decent update.

I got bored one day so I wrote this.

How I wish to see your face one again,
How I wish to see the smile that got my
heart fluttering,
How I wish I could hear your voice; even just for a second,
How I wish to hear your infectious laughter on
those dull days,
How I wish that I wasn't so addicted to the love
you once gave me,
How I wish that every song I hear wouldn't
remind me of you,
How I wish that I could stop faking not loving you
and just be over you for real.

There's a continuation to this poem but it's too private for me to let the whole read. XD

From the singer that sang Castle, James Baum's Locked in Love. My current addiction.

I cant recognize who iam
when i'm lookin in a mirror(mirror, no, no ,no ,no)
shackled by the love i have for you
and i know that u feelin the same
we were once both 2 beautiful minds
attracted to each other
the differences that we had
somewhere along the line we kinda lost out way

so im not just gonna sit around
and let u forget what we were
once there was strength in being together
we need to find keys out of this prison

locked in a prison
in a prison i know that we made
ohhhhoo ohhhoo ooo
why cant we be like the birds an the bees
livin for each day
locked in love, your love, my love, it's our love
it's such a shame uhoo uhoo uhoo

i cant remember the moments
we shared
when im staring at the pictures
no no no noooo
the ones we hung on the wall
why cant we be like that today(today,today)
we we're once both glowing with love
drawn into each other(lovin every moment we spent)
(what can we do to recover that)
how did we get so blind
how do we find a way

but i'm not just gonna sit around
and let u forget what we were
once there we're straight in being together
we need to find keys out of this prison

locked in a prison
in a prison i know that we made
ohhhhoo ohhhoo ooo
why cant we be like the birds an the bees
livin for each day
locked in love, your love, my love, it's our love
it's such a shame uhoo uhoo uhoo

how it ended up this way
wooohow nooooo

how it ended up this way
wooohow nooooo

i dont wanna let this go
nooo ooooo ooo
(i dont wanna let this go)
(i dont wann let it fade)
(i dont wanna walk away)
(but i cant carry on this way)

(i dont wanna let this go)
(i dont wann let it fade)
(i dont wanna walk away)
(but i cant carry on this way)

locked in a prison
in a prison i know that we made
ohhhhoo ohhhoo ooo
why cant we be like the birds an the bees
livin for each day
locked in love, your love, my love, it's our love
it's such a shame uhoo uhoo uhoo

how it ended up this way
how it ended up this way
i dont know
i dont know
and i dont know why

mhhhh mhhhhh

Still locked onto your make belief love.

xX Shaun.

2009-02-15T07:48:00.000-08:00

I just freaking love this song.
I find it to be freaking meaningful for it does reflects on my feelings.

McFly - Too Close For Comfort

I never meant the things I said to make you cry
Can I say I'm sorry
It's hard to forget
And yes
I regret all these mistakes

I don't know why you're leaving me
But I know you must have your reasons
There's tears in your eyes
I watch as you cry but it's getting late

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out when I wanted in
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know

Remember when we scratched our names into the sand
And told me you loved me
Now that I find that you've changed your mind I'm lost for words

And everything I feel for you
I wrote down on one piece of paper
The one in your hand
You won't understand how much it hurts to let you go

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out when I wanted in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know
Ooh
Yeah

All this time you've been telling me lies
Hidden in bags that are under your eyes
And when I asked you I knew I was right
But if you turn your back on me now when I need you most
But you chose to let me down
Down
Down
Won't you think about what you're about to do to me and back down

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out when I wanted in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort

You're pushing me out when I wanted in
Yeah
Yeah
Yeah
What was I just about to discover
And I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know

2009-02-15T05:19:00.000-08:00

11th February

The cleaner did not turn up for work today and guess what Michelle and I did?
We volunteered to clean the men's washroom.
Holy cow.
I've never even clean any toilets before let alone the toilets in my house.
Since Lisa had to clean the both the men's and women's washroom, we offered to help.

And so, we set out to clean the washroom.
First, we swept the floor then we vacuumed the floor.
Yup, we vacuumed the floor instead of washing it.
Easier that way. XD
After vacuuming the floor, we washed the bathing rooms.
Just had to splash some water on the walls and wipe them dry.
Not only that, we had to mop the floor dry too.
Tedious, isn't it?

After we were done with the showers, we cleaned the toilets.
Michelle was complaining non-stop about one of the cubicle as it was bloody dirty.
According to her, there were still traces of shit.
Eeeww.
After I had finished cleaning one of the toilets, I went to keep the Harpic and one of our customers, Mr Lim came in.
I was surprised to see him as I did not expect customers at that time.
He said 'hello' to me and I muttered a quick hello before darting into the toilet I just cleaned.
I pretended to be wiping the cubicles with the door closed.
And, when the coast was clear, I quickly went out only to find another customer, Mr Yeoh clad only in his underwear.
I was like holy fcuk and I hid in the bathing room Michelle was in.
Apparently she saw something that she wasn't supposed to see like me too. XD

It was a lucky thing that Mr Yeoh didn't see me coming out from the toilet as he would scream his head off.
He's gay you see?
So we hid in the toilet until we were really sure that the coast was clear.

So that's about it for my toilet experience.
Definitely an unforgettable one. Lmao.

Two days after that, we had to clean the women's washroom since the cleaner was on leave.
Ish, from operation assistants to cleaners la.

Working in a spa and especially at the towel counter has got it's advantages sometimes.
I ain't gonna dwell on why I said it's an advantage. *evil grin*

Front desk is boring.

Notice the date? The bread ain't mouldy and it will never be.

It don't stink or anything but it dried up. Ahh the wonders of

Till then,

xX Shaun.

2009-02-10T04:49:00.000-08:00

I've been busy lately, working.
Hence, the almost dead blog of mine once again.
I'm currently working at a spa called Ecoparadise.
Not like your ordinary spa though.
The pay is good, I tell you. XD Wheee! Shopping frenzy after payday. LOL
And the job is quite simple and definitely more relaxing.
Not only that, working in a place like this is a great way to improve one's PR skills.
You'll get to meet people from all walks of life.
Some are friendly, some are arrogant like fcuk and some are just great!! XD

And thanks to working life, my inability to sleep is a thing of the past.
YAY!
The downside of it is that I can't work on my stories.
Yes, mark the -ies.
Nadia told me not to stick to writing one particular story at one given time as you'll get sick of writing it eventually.
Perhaps, the one reason why writers have writer's block is because of this? Hmm

My fascination with vampires has not quite died down.
No, it's not because of Twilight.
Why I even bother writing this is because the next book on my reading list is Darren Shan's Cirque Du Freak.
I hope I got that right.
Wouldn't wanna offend any Darren Shan fans. Lol
The story is mainly about a young boy called Darren Shan who met a vampire during a freak show.
Darren got pretty intrigued with the vampire and his way of life; and he decided to become one of them.
Basically, the books in this series tells of his journey to become a vampire.
Now, that I wanna read.
On the plus side, there's little romance to be found in this series.

Ah, yes. Chinese New Year was as boring and uneventful as the previous years.
My red packet did get fatter this year though, surprisingly, what with the economic slowdown and all.
My cousin and I played a lot of Chor Tai Di coz she wanted me to hone my skills so I could be a bigger challenge to her.
She claims I'm much of a noob in this game. Ish
And she manicured my nail for me! AHHH!!

It's not clear as I couldn't get the camera to focus clearly. My hands were shaking. XD

Well, let me end this post with a poem I've wrote during those sleepless nights.
Ahh the irony of the sleepless nights blues.
It's my first poem in such a long time though so be warned that it won't be good.
It's more like a passage than a poem to me though.
Well enjoy reading it or suffer reading it. XD

There you stand,
In all your glory; lo and behold,
So painstakingly beautiful; the beauty I yearned to touch,
Steps I had taken; none too far none too near,
Away from the untarnished jewel of my eye; I longed,
Far too long had my frail being besotted by the brilliance you radiate,
Yet you are like heroine; I am addicted beyond hope,
If I had to risk a friendship to make these damned feelings gone; I will,
For I'm done building walls after walls and masquerading,
The pain of losing you still runs clear in my veins like venom,
The venom that will be the death of me someday,
Forgive me for my whines about my disability to move on; it annoys me to the very core so to speak,
I wish for a cure for these sleepless nights; for I am at my most vulnerable,
The memories plays on like a bad movie; black and white, muted,
When the world sleeps the night away; my mind takes a peek at your image like a Peeping Tom on the run,
And it is during this time am I deranged enough to put pointless and senseless words to pen and paper,
Putting the most discussed topic in ink; You,
And so darling watch me dance; with steps none too far none too near,
Pray, bear with my dance annoying as it may be,
'Till my disability flows to yesterdays that won't return; till my whines drown in the sounds of the past,
Until then my darling, let this drug-induced fool dance.

I certainly hope you understand what I wrote.
A lot of hidden meanings in this poem.
And bloody stupid this poem is.
Oh well...

My favourite song at the moment.

DSDS - Cry On My Shoulder

If the hero, never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home
You can rum away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you, I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

Till then.

xX Shaun

2009-01-13T05:25:00.000-08:00

January 11th

Went for steamboat with Ma, Grace, Joannne, Michelle and Ting today.
Lol Grace, Michelle and I barbecued more than we put food into the soup to boil.
Grace took a lot of beef, Michelle took a lot of squid and I, pork with those little white fats dangling off. XD
In the end, Grace and I ended up stuffing ourselves with the huge pile of beef she took as a RM5 fine is imposed for any 100g of food wasted.
That monkey covered up the food we couldn't finish with the prawn shells and tissues. XD
Then the beef, with every bite for each piece, she'll say 'Boh sek' then spit it out.
That's how we finished the beef.

Hmm, I need books to read! I'm practically rotting at home already! And besides that, I need some reading materials to refer to for my story.

It's hard to write a good story. >.>

My Book List

1. Inkdeath by Cornelia Funke.
The sequel to Inkheart. Inkheart was a joy to read so I want Inkdeath!

2. Brisingr by Christopher Paolini.
The third book for the Inheritance series. Hmm I want to know whether Eragon and Arya got together in this book or not.

3. Eclipse by Stephenie Meyers.
New Moon left me in a cliffhanger so I can't wait to get Eclipse for myself. Definitely a good reference material for my story.

4. Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyers.
Of course, I'll have to get this book after reading Eclipse.

5. The Tamuli series by David Eddings.
The sequel to the series before this. Couldn't remember the name of the series before The Tamuli though.

Well no pictures as there is something wrong with the USB port. so next time and I'll make this post longer. XD

xX Shaun.

2009-01-10T04:26:00.000-08:00

Lol not much to blog about today.
Just uploading a couple pictures and two videos of me waxing my cousin's legs using scotch tape. Muahaha!
Stayed at home the whole day today.
Going out for steamboat with Ayam, Monyet, Ma and I don't know who else tomorrow.

Shauni's Waxing Parlour

And my wannabe model cousin. Tch tch hopeless.

This is the original pose.

The ciplak pose.

xX Shaun.

2009-01-09T00:25:00.000-08:00

January 7th

Slept for just 3 hours plus. God, stupid insomnia. Grr. Met up with Grace and Michelle in our beloved ex school, CGL except for Grace of course. She's an ex Dalat-ian. Pn. Hooi talked to me for a while in the canteen, commenting on my lip stud. Ate my beloved char mihun which I had dearly missed in these past 2 months. Mmmm. We saw Pn. Latha and Pn. Salmah when we walked to the mew block. HAHA it's so sweet to see the look on their faces when they saw me. Coloured hair, lip stud and earrings. XD XD I went to disturb Pn. Rajes for a while in the staff room. Hands down, she's the best form teacher ever!

I disturbed yet another favourite teacher of mine, Pn Cheah.

Me; Pn Cheah

Teacher ar, my Add Maths ar-

Don't tell me! (lightning quick response)

LOL I bet she knows what to expect for my Add Maths result. I'm sorry, Pn Cheah. I know it's saddening to have a student like me. Muahaha!

Somehow, returning to CGL wearing anything but our school uniform is something that I can't get used to. I miss the rowdiness of 5 Mahir though it's only been two months but it seriously felt like years to me these 2 months. The fact that I can never don the school uniform and attend school leaves me feeling hollow. Oh well, it's part of growing up. Time to write a new chapter in my life.

Went back to Michelle's house after that and those two idiots washed their hair in the sink when they can use the bathroom instead.

Grace Sun's Sink-y Moment

After that, Michelle slept , I got hooked on playing Batman Lego again while Grace watched Tom and Jerry and Mr. Bean. They dropped me off at Canon for a while before we head on to Prangin. Sang Whitney Houston's I'll Always Love You like a couple of banshees when Michelle was driving up to the carpark. I've got the recording but it ain't worth it to hurt your eardrums over our singing. Besides that, Grace was being obscene. XD

Walked around boring Prangin to find Grace's Kapo. We went back to Michelle's house again after we found the Kapo she wants. Those two pigs slept and I had to watch them sleep coz I can't seem to sleep ; there was nothing to do either. So, I 'ransacked' Grace's music playlist in her Ipod Touch. When they finally woke up, we went to Subaidah in Tanjung Tokong for dinner since we were craving for nasi kandar. Then we head down to Gurney Drive to meet up with Michelle's grandma. Grace and I did a commentary on Michelle's robotic cha cha steps.

And, that's all. Yes, I'm boring you to hell I know. A million apologies. Here's a slideshow of my pictures. XD I know what you're thinking: perasan.

The normal hair look.

The MOHAWK! tak menjadi.

And presenting the gay!

Went to Gurney Drive again yesterday since we had nothing to do. Grace had gone down to KL for two days.

The dusk sky.

Aargh, the wind is messing up my hair look.

Jewel Berry Cigar.

The spot where Michelle and I sat.

Look how dirty Gurney Drive is? Tch tch.

Right, that's about all.

xX Shaun.

2009-01-09T00:10:00.000-08:00

January 6th

I woke up at 2pm today. Yes 2pm. I had nothing to do for the whole entire day so I decided to sleep the whole day off. Michelle called me when I just woke up anf I had to rush like mad just to get ready. In the end, I went out looking like an idiot especially my hair. Michelle went to pick up Mira from SGGS to drop her off at Komtar.

After dropping her off at Komtar, we went to Island Plaza as Big Monkey wants to check the price for a I-Don't-Know-What-Brand pair of sunglasses. I had my breakfast-cum-lunch-cum-tea ( XD ) at Japin. Grace a.k.a. Big Monkey joined us after a while and we head down to Subaidah since that monkey wants to eat roti tisu. We ordered one each since Grace doesn't wanna share. Tch tch. No pictures of the towering roti tisu's though. We were too busy making sure our roti tisu doesn't fly off from the plate.

After tea, we went back to Michelle's place. I got hooked on with Monkey's Nintendo DS; Batman Lego is super addictive. WOOT WOOT!! I was playing that game for hours until we decided to go for dinner at Khaleel in Gurney Drive. Saw Delphine at Khaleel; that sui chaboh. XD We walked along after the Gurney promenade since we were bloody full. Yen came with Yi Qin around 10-ish I think and we went to Coffee Island for drinks.

That's about all for January 6th. Sadly no, pictures. It's all in Grace's phone. I've forgotten to bluetooth it over to my phone. Oh well.

xX Shaun.

2009-01-04T23:11:00.000-08:00

Since I'm pretty much in love with Varsity, I might as well post up lyrics to 3 of my favourite songs from them.

Varsity - You'll Be Okay

[Verse 1:]
I couldn't live without you, no
Couldn't see myself without you
But it's over now
I'm lost when I'm without you, yeah
My heart just doesn't beat the same
I ain't got no one to blame

[Hook:]
And when I'm alone
I tell myself
I'll make it on my own

[Chorus:]
Like the lyrics of a sad song
Mine was feeling so wrong
If you could only hear the words I say
When your heart beats beside me
Without you, I can't find me
I just wanna hear you say
That you'll be ok
You'll be ok
Ok oh oh (hey) ok
Ok (ok) oh oh ok

[Verse 2:]
If I could turn back to us
Mmm oh
Then maybe I could change the way I was
Just to prove it to us
I can be all the man you need
And you're still the only woman for me

[Hook:]
And when I'm alone
I tell myself
I'll make it on my own

[Chorus:]
Like the lyrics of a sad song
Mine was feeling so wrong
If you could only hear the words I say
(Hear the words I say)
When your heart beats beside me
Without you, I can't find me
I just wanna hear you say
(I just wanna hear you say)
Yo
That you'll be ok
V, lemme in man
Yeah
Yo
You'll be ok

[Rapping:]
Uh Yeah, I'm here to show
Here to be okay
She had left me so sick like Ne-Yo say
Damn
I'm a need a couple of minutes to bounce back
Love is more important than the money I found then
But it's too late
Baby I know now
When I saw you standing by the door
Like go now
So cold like a snow cloud
So slow merry go round
Here to hold cold now [? ]

[Hook:]
And when I'm alone
I tell myself
I'll make it on my own

[Chorus: x2]
Like the lyrics of a sad song
Mine was feeling so wrong
If you could only hear the words I say
When your heart beats beside me
Without you, I can't find me
I just wanna hear you say

Like the lyrics of a sad song
(You'll be ok)
Mine was feeling so wrong
If you could only hear the words I say
When your heart beats beside me
Without you, I can't find me
I just wanna hear you say
That you'll be ok
Oh no
You'll be ok
Ok oh oh ok
Tell me you'll be ok
Ok oh oh ok

Varsity - Let Her Go

[Verse 1:]
You left a letter as a clue...
Set me in the air, At the spot, where I first kissed you,
Holdin my head in my hands,
You brushed a tear off my face,
One on one, You confessed that this all you can take,

I'm broken, tired
There ain't nothing left to say
I'm crying (Didn't mean to watch as)
Didn't mean to watch as
You just walked away

[Chorus:]
Just let her go (just let her go)
It's too far in motion
Just let her go (just let her go)
My heart can gain control
It's too late (just a little bit)
It's too far (just a little bit)
You're leaving me behind
Just let her go (just let her go)
Just let her go (just let her go)

[Verse 2:]
I should take it all back
All the kisses I gave you
The tears that you left me with
Don't know how to react
On my own, by myself
How could you say goodbye?

I'm broken, tired
There ain't nothing left to say
I'm crying
Didn't mean to watch as
You just walked away

[Chorus:]
Just let her go
It's too far in motion
Just let her go (just let her go)
My heart can gain control
It's too late (just a little bit)
It's too far (just a little bit)
You're leaving me behind
Just let her go (just let her go)
Just let her go (just let her go)

[Verse 3:]
It's cold
It's cold
It's cold
It's cold
It's cold in here without you (without you)
It's cold
It's cold
I'm broken

Thought it could be you
When you think of it
Every little piece of it
Is keeping me from turning blue
Had to turn away
Didn't want to see you giving me awaaayyy

[Chorus:]
Just let her go
It's too far in motion
Just let her go (just let her go)
My heart can gain control
It's too late (just a little bit)
It's too far (just a little bit)
You're leaving me behind
Just let her go (just let her go)
Just let her go (just let her go)

Varsity - Why Not Me

[Verse 1:]
Oh
Should I stay
Should I go
Should've asked
Don't wanna know,
Who are you thinking bout
Who are you thinking bout
Shouldn't kiss
Shouldn't tell
Shouldn't have without farewell, farwell with me
What were you thinking bout
What were you thinking bout

[Hook:]
What is it that keeps me
Hanging on to every word you say
What is it that keeps me holding on to you

[Chorus:]
Because you're stuck in my head
Like my favorite song
You put the scene on pause
It still plays on
It's chapter 3
It's hard to breathe
The words are slowly fading
Stop and go in lunch on a busy street
Bumper to bumper
This empty seat
Without you here, I get no where
I ask, "Why not me? "

[Verse 2:]
Could've been
Could've had
How could you do that and not look back
(Back, back oh)
Who were you thinking bout
Who were you thinking bout
You couldn't wait
And you couldn't breathe
You couldn't be sharing the same dreams as me
Who are you thinking bout
Who are you thinking bout

[Hook:]
What is it that keeps me
Hanging on to every word you say
What is it that keeps me holding on to you

[Chorus:]
Because you're stuck in my head
Like my favorite song
You put the scene on pause
It still plays on
It's chapter 3
It's hard to breathe
The words are slowly fading
Stop and go in lunch on a busy street
Bumper to bumper
This empty seat
Without you here, I get no where
I ask, "Why not me? "

[Bridge:]
I wouldn't lie
I wouldn't cheat on you
I wouldn't do all the things that you'd do
I wouldn't ever give your love away
So when you look in the mirror
As I pass you by
You see yourself
A lonely cry
Take a harder look and see what's left inside
Why not me
Eh oh ho yeah oh

[Chorus: x2]
Because you're stuck in my head
Like my favorite song
You put the scene on pause
It still plays on
It's chapter 3
It's hard to breathe
The words are slowly fading
Stop and go in lunch on a busy street
Bumper to bumper
This empty seat
Without you here, I get no where
I ask, "Why not me? "

Because you're stuck in my head
Like my favorite song
You put the scene on pause
It still plays on
It's chapter 3
It's hard to breathe
The words are slowly fading
Stop and go in lunch on a busy street
Bumper to bumper
This empty seat
Without you here, I get no where
I ask, "Why not me? "

Why not me
Why not me
Why not me
Why not me

2009-01-04T21:58:00.000-08:00

Whoa, it's either I don't give a damn about this blog or I'm the laziest person on Earth.

Well, here's a little short post.

Not much to write, well actually there is alot to write but god forbid, I've forgotten what I've done in all my outings.

Yeah, if you can remember what you've done when you went to Gurney for 7 days in a row, I salute you. XD

Yeah yeah, my poor excuse for my short term memory loss.

Hmm New Year Eve was boring.

There wasn't that much people in Gurney than it was during Christmas Eve.

And, definitely not a sign of those accursed snow spray =D

We( Michelle, Sun and I) bought a 24 pack of Carlsberg.

Sadly, we didn't manage to drink more than 10 cans. XD

Went to Gurney around 6 and walked around, not sure of what to do.

I'm officially sick of Gurney now. Bleh

Xin Yi came and joined us.

Walked around for a little while before Sun, Xin Yi and I decided to head to Bed in Belissa Row.

It's quite a nice bistro that Bed.

We ordered a jug of Tiger, Long Island and tequila.

Damn, Tiger tastes like crap.

Hands down, Heineken is the best!!

Michelle joined us at 10-ish I think.

Went back to Gurney for the countdown after that.

After the countdown, we head over to Taman Jajar in Sri York to drink our Carlsberg.

The beer wasn't the one that made me high but rather, the vanilla flavoured cigar.

Good shyt, I tell you. LMAO

That's about it for New Year's Eve.

Sad thing, it's knda boring.

Oh well.

I seriously hope 2009 will be a great year for me.

2008 was an awesome year for me but I just hope I don't suffer the same little episodes of 2008 in 2009.

Time to start anew.

P/s - I'm considering posting up that messed up story of mine in Fiction Press. Hmm, that'll have to wait till I finally get a laptop.

xX Shaun.

The L Word

2008-12-21T02:14:00.000-08:00

I'm officially in love with The L Word now. At first, I did get the geli-ness watching it. Too much kissing and uh, that uhh scenes.

But after a while, I got so sick of it that I fast-forwarded most of those scenes.

So, I didn't slept for two nights just to watch this series.

Google it up if you wanna know it's about.

*winks*

I absolutely adore these two from this series la. Carmen(Sarah Shahi) is so so so so so so so hot la.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! XD

Shane McCutcheon who's played by Katherine Moennig. Psst, I'm obsessed with her. XD

And, here's Carmen, my genuine babi, who's played by Sarah Shahi. Hotstuff *drools*

Shane and Carmen, my favourite couple in the series.

They took such a long time to get together la. Aiyo.

I wanna watch Season 3 la!!! Ahh.

xX Shaun.

2008-12-17T02:34:00.000-08:00

I fell in love with this song from David Archuleta. God, so damn meaningful.

If you haven't heard it yet, go listen to it.

High recommended. XD

David Archuleta - A Little Too Not Over You

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, oooh, oooh, oooh
Oooooooh
Oh
Ooooh, oh

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do

I'm just a little too not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you

Till then,

xX Shaun.

New Skin

2008-12-15T01:21:00.000-08:00

I've finally found a new skin for my blog after painstakingly searching through blogskins.com.

So hard la wanna find one decent skin.

Well, this skin may be simple but I like it.

The more simple it is, the better.

Till then.

xX Shaun.

The Gay-est Day

2008-12-14T06:44:00.000-08:00

Well bloggie, it's been a while hasn't it? XD

I'm back now to finally update. Zingwei, you happy now? =P

So SPM is finally over; yeah yeah it's been over for such a long time now.

Anyway, gonna update a little, it won't be a long post though.

Just a short post to make sure my blog is not dead. =D

So on 6th December, Linda Chung Ka Yan, the TVB actress came to Queens so Michelle, Ting and I went there. First time seeing an actress mah so just go there and join in the jostling crowd. XD

It was bloody hot though.

As soon as we reach there, Ting went to find Fennie and Shin Ye(whatever her name is) at T-bowl. Michelle and I wandered around aimlessly. Seriously, the malls in Penang are boring the crap outta me. Different malls with different name but the same old things la.

Right, so wandering around aimlessly, lunch at Sushi King, wandering around aimlessly again, meeting up with Ting, bla bla bla.

Just some random picture of us sitting outside a shop.

Guess what? Michelle bought a pillow and the fella put the pillow in a HUGE bag and she half-dragged it around before she dumped the bag to Ting and ran away. Tch tch. Ting dragged it instead of carrying the bag. Lmao.

Met up with Sok Wah for a while before we head down to Coffee Beans. From then onwards, it got pretty gay. XD At first, she squeezed in with Ting on the sofa.

Just like a kid annoying someone, no? =P

Then she just had to come and squeezed with me. Tch tch. My comfortable space. Ahh.

The two gays. XD

Mmm, it's finger-licking good.

The geek! ;D

I'd wonder why I still smile when I'm about to be molested? Tch tch.

Okay, okay, this will be last of the pictures. XD

So feel like puking, yet? ;) Right after our gay moment, we went to khek with the crowd to wait for the oh so lovely Linda Chung.

That's about all la. Not much going on these days. Been spending my days writing and jamming on the guitar. Sad, ain't it?

Well, I need to go out la. Anyone?

xX Shaun.

Without You

2008-11-14T00:41:00.000-08:00

I heard this song the other day on radio and damn, it's such a meaningful song. It's the latest song from Hinder called Without You. Definitely an inspirational song in way. XD Go check it out and you won't go wrong with it. ;)

Hinder - Without You

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

Cause somethings changed
Youve been acting so strange
And its taking its toll on me
Its safe to say that Im ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, Im seein myself so differently
I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
Im fine
Without you

Called you up cause its been long enough
And you said that you were so much better
We have done a lot of growing up
We were never meant to be together

Cause something changed, you were acting so strange
And its taken its toll on me
Its safe to say that Im ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, Im seein myself so differently
I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
Im fine
Without you

Cause something changed, you were acting so strange
And its taken its toll on me
Its safe to say that Im ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, Im seein myself so differently
I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
Im fine,
Without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
I just wanna be alone tonight,
I just wanna take a little breather.

SPM was killer. I still have 5 more days to go and it's bye bye to killer public exams!

Till then.

xX Shaun.

It's CREEPING 'round the corner.

2008-11-02T22:52:00.000-08:00

GOD!!!

SPM is next Tuesday!

AHHH!!

I'm totally not prepared la. Oh god, oh god. I'm gonna die. T.T
Anyway, just gonna write this short post to say good luck to all the fifth formers.
High school life is gonna end soon and I'm having mix feelings about it.
Oh well.

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!

xX Shaun.

Trials sucked to the very core!

2008-09-20T05:48:00.000-07:00

Ah, bloggie! I've left you to rot once again. XD Well anyway...I'M BACK!

But soon I'll be all inactive again. =P

Too lazy to update la.

Must type and type. Blah.

Trials sucked BIG TIME. I'm gonna fail all my three sciences and two of my Maths subjects.

How nice. =.=

I'm gonna study for 50 days now till the real thing.

No more procastinating(sp?) now.

GOTTA STUDY!!!

Ahhhhh!

Enough bout that. Went to Zingwei's house yesterday and man, how we screamed when we played Resident Evil 4. Che Hui played so chi kek-ly, jumping up from the chair then screamed. XD As for Serene, she was even more excited than us, who were playing. =P

Well you be the judge.

I've got two videos of your's truly *ahem* and Che Hui playing.

Well forgive me for the shakiness in video 2. Was busy laughing my ass off. XD

Well, that's about it la. Lazy to write further on.

Toodles!

xXShaun.

I miss you

2008-08-24T08:17:00.000-07:00

I bloody, fucking love this song now. Check it out.

I did some things i shouldnt have done
Said some things that were wrong
Girl, i was just too scared to fall in love
I have to cuz of my complications
wore out all your patience
girl, i dont blame you for being fed up
but then it hit me all at once, when you left
just like a hundred thousand tons, in my chest
wishing this pain would go away, and leave me
but it gets worse, everyday, cuz babyyy
I cant let you go, I keep tryin but I cant girl
its impossible, i miss you too bad
I cant wish away the pain that i cannot do girl
and all i can say is... i miss you.

tryin to tell myself to move on, to grow up and be strong
girl, i keep thinkin bout those better days
so many things i wanna tell you
like how much i love you
but girl, cant believe you're really gone away
and then it hit me all at once, when you left
just like a hundred thousand tons, in my chest
wishing this pain would go away, and leave me
but it gets worse, everyday, cuz babyyy
I can't let you go, i keep tryin but i cant girl
its impossible, i miss you too bad
I cant wish away the pain that i cannot do girl
and all i can say is... i miss you.

Damn baby girl i miss you so much
wanna hear your voice, wanna feel your touch
wanna feel your heart beating next to mines
but i know that i cant just press rewind
if i could, then i would in an instant
promise that things would be so damn different
promise that i wouldnt be so distant
i cant believe that my best friends gone
without you, it just feel so wrong
what i would give to sing a different song
but your tellin me my chance is blown
all i can do now is just sit and dream
reminiscing on what might have been
wishing you would come back to me
but i know you just want me to set you free

I can't let you go, i keep tryin but i cant girl
its impossible, i miss you too bad
I cant wish away the pain that i cannot do girl
and all i can say is... i miss you.

Blah. It's making me emo once again.

xX Shaun.

Nothing much

2008-08-23T05:26:00.000-07:00

I've got a new band obsession. Blah, this ain't good. XD

Oh well. My latest obsession is the latest band on the block.

FOREVER THE SICKEST KIDS

Heard of them, no?

If your into rock songs, check them out. You won't go wrong with them. No kidding. ;)

Check out these songs from them now, will ya?

She's a Lady

That For Me

Believe Me, I'm Lying

Catastrophe

The Way She Moves

Hmm I can't really remember what other songs there is.

Xin Yi bloody made me obsessed with 3OH!3's Don't Trust Me. Bloody nice song with cute lyrics. XD

Black dress with the tights underneath,
I got the breath of the last cigarette on my teeth,
And shes an actress (actress),
But she ain't got no need.
Shes got money from her parents in a trust fund back east.
T-t-t-tongues always pressed to your cheeks,
While my tongue is on the inside of some other girls teeth,
T-tell your boyfriend if he says hes got beef,
That I'm a vegetarian and I ain't fucking scared of him.

She wants to touch me (Woah),
She wants to love me (Woah),
She'll never leave me (Woah, woah, oh, oh),
Don't trust a ho,
Never trust a ho,
Won't trust a ho,
Because a ho won't trust me.

X's on the back of your hands,
Wash them in the bathroom to drink like the bands.
And your setlist (setlist),
You stole off the stage,
Had red and purple lipstick all over the page.
B-b-b-bruises cover your arms,
Shaking in the fingers with the bottle in your palm.
And the best is (best is),
No one knows who you are,
Just another girl alone at the bar.

She wants to touch me (Woah),
She wants to love me (Woah),
She'll never leave me (Woah, woah, oh, oh),
Don't trust a ho,
Never trust a ho,
Won't trust a ho,
Because a ho won't trust me.

Shush girl shut your lips,
Do the Hellen Keller and talk with your hips.
I said, Shush girl shut your lips,
Do the Hellen Keller and talk with your hips.
I said, Shush girl shut your lips,
Do the Hellen Keller and talk with your hips.

Woah, woah, woah...

She wants to touch me (Woah),
She wants to love me (Woah),
She'll never leave me (Woah, woah, oh, oh),
Don't trust a ho,
Never trust a ho,
Won't trust a ho,
Because a ho won't trust me.

Just gotta love this song!!

Oh and Ne-Yo's gotta be one of the greatest RnB singers around. He's just coming up with great tunes la. Tak boleh tahan la. Check out Miss Independent.

My current favourite RnB artiste, the Ne-Yo. XD

Alright, that'll be all for now.

Toodles!

xX Shaun.

Prom; Class of 08

2008-08-19T03:42:00.000-07:00

Hmm I think I won't blog about my birthday. Terlalu lazy. XD

So we, the CGLians, had our Prom Night on 9/8/08. It wasn't that fun, wasn't that bad either.

But one thing's for sure,

My RM55 went down the drain

I paid that much just to take pictures non-stop for 4 whole hours.

Tch tch.

Should have eaten to my heart's content wan.

Oh well.

Anyway, I shall start from the beginning of the day.

We had school in the morning. Instead of studying, we had this Hari Kokurikulum. Participated in the basketball game and we weren't really playing to win. Some more I sucked so badly at this game. Aiyo.

We were dismissed at 12.30 p.m. and I slept for like 15 minutes before I got up to clean my white DC shoe and also to get ready to go to Izue's house. Her mum fetched us to Odyssey to get our hair done. Her mum wanted to take us to another saloon but then Izue insisted on going to Odyssey as Sha was there. In the end, we regretted getting our hair done there. XD We saw Pn. Cheah and Hwei Yuin at Odyssey and not forgetting Sha too.

After getting our hair done, we went back to Izue's place for that girl to change and also to make up. Tch tch.

We reached Gurney Hotel at 6.30 p.m. and we talked to Izni and the others for a while before going up to register. Met up with Grace there and we down to wait for Xin Yi and Ah Goh to come. They came around 7-ish I think and we went up to the toilet on the 3rd floor to vain. XD

After we puas with vaining, we went into the ballroom. I tell you ar, there were beautiful girls everywhere you turn la. Haha. Then the 4 hours of vaining began.

For the lucky draw, I won a table fan. Haha I thought I'm winning something really nice when Florence hand me a big box. Mana tau, it's a table fan. Oh well, at least I won something.

Aha, the proud owner of the table fan. XD

After a while, Izue and I went out for the photoshoot thing coz there weren't that much people that time. If I have the chance, I'll try to upload those pictures up.

Here are some pictures that I managed to get/taken with my phone. The rest are, well, taken with people's camera. XD

With Janice,

With Munee,

With Yi Lin a.k.a. The Screamer =P

With Adelene,

With Nabila, Kaan and Izni darling,

With Pn Shamala (my form teacher in Form 1),

With Zi Xin,

With Serene darling and Laureene,

With Pn. Rajes (my current form teacher),

With Pn Lim,

With Che Yen,

With Che Hui darling (I think) XD

With my 'beloved' wife, Hanisah

With Michelle,

With Michelle and Che Hui darling,

With Celia, Izni darling, my 'beloved' wife Izue and Sarah

With Michelle and Che Yen

With Michelle and Che Yen once again,

With Michelle and Che Hui darling,

Right, that's about all the pictures that I have for now.

Prom ended at 10 p.m. and I hung around Gurney Hotel for a while before going to Gurney Plaza with Michelle to catch a movie. If you still haven't watch Meet Dave, go watch it! Lol. That movie is kinda hilarious. After the movie, we went to Sunrise McD to meet up with Kaan, Munee and Sophia. Sat there for a while before we went to find Izni and her Kie Kie at Mr. Pot. Munee and Sophia left us at Mr. Pot to join Izni. We went to Khaleel for supper after that. So hungry la I tell you. Since Kaan ate a lot during prom, she just ordered something to drink.

We went to Gurney Hotel to find Zi Xin and Zingwei after supper. These two pigs were sleeping at the lobby la. Tch tch. Like so unwanted only la. XD Kaan got so syok with the elephant ornament that she played with it non-stop. Haha.

Then we went up to their hotel room( Zi Xin's and Zingwei's) and Kaan threaten Zi Xin that she'll scream if she don't follow us back to our hotel. Lol Kaan will make a good kidnapper one day. Kidding, kidding!

And so our journey to Berjaya Hotel begin with Kaan as the leader who nicely brought us ONE big round to our hotel at 4 a.m. A little too early for a morning walk, eh? Haha still it couldn't compare to the walk to St. Georges. Now that's bloody far.

We finally reached the hotel 35 minutes later and I bloody slept for less than an hour I think. too much interruptions la. Tch tch.

The next morning, Kaan and I went down for the buffet as I was the only one awake that time. After buffet, we went back to the hotel and wait for the others to wake up before going swimming. Che Hui, Serene and Michelle stayed at the room to sleep though.

Here are some random pics. Muahaha!

Kaan and Che Hui darling

Our superman daddy is sleeping. Shhhh!

HAHA, picture taken by Michelle. She'll kill me if she sees this. XD

Finally, our messy room. XD

After that, the twins, Yi Qin, Michelle, Serene and I went to Gurney Plaza. Spent half our time there at the arcade. I followed Serene at 3 something I think as it was kinda dangerous for her to walk to One Stop to catch a bus.

Serene's dog, Zai Zai, taking a bite at my pants. Non-stop chasing after my pants la. Tch tch.

Right, that'll be all for the prom updates.

Toodles!

xX Shaun.

Menjaga Hati

2008-08-13T03:50:00.000-07:00

masih tertinggal bayanganmu
yang telah membekas di relung hatiku
hujan tanpa henti seolah pertanda
cinta tak di sini lagi
kau tlah berpaling

biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini, ohh
menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri
engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi
kau menjaga, aku takkan jauh
sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu

masih adakah cahaya rindumu
yang dulu selalu cerminkan hatimu
aku takkan bisa menghapus dirimu
meski ku lihat kini
kau di seberang sana

andai akhirnya
kau tak juga kembali
aku tetap sendiri
menjaga hati

Yovie Dan Nuno - Menjaga Hati

A bloody good song. Check it out.

Blissful As Can Be

2008-08-08T05:23:00.000-07:00

Ha, don't mind the title, I have no idea what to write for my title. Well here's the update that you want, longkang kia. XD

July 29th

School was okay today and boring as usual. Just the same old. We tried to skip Morale class but then Pn. Indra sent people to come and check on us. She didn't use the Media Room but instead conduct her 'lesson' in 5 Pintar and we were in 5 Terampil. And we were making a lot of noise so its no wonder she called people o come and check on us. Cheh. That 5 Pintar class is too small to accommodate (sp?) so many of us la.

During History, I walked around the whole Form 5 block just to skip answering questions. At first, I went to the toilet then I came back to class and they told me that it's still not my turn so I just turned around and walked out of class. Pn. Hooi didn't even notice, I tell you. Too absorb in teaching edi la. Haha.

After school, Serene, Izue and I went to Grace's car and wait till there's no car leaving the school. Grace dropped me at my house for me to change then she drove us all the way to Queens. Izue wasn't in the car that time. She went back for her tuition first. Met up with Spencer in Borders. In case your wondering, Spencer is Serene's boyfriend. He came all the way down from KL just to see her. So sweet la those two. XD Too bad I only took one picture of them. After that, we went to Paddington House of Pancakes for a bite.

Here's Serene and Spencer. XD

After a while, Spencer's friends, Bright and Kai Soon ( I think that his name) joined us.

That Bright said I looked like an 11 year old. What the... But never mind la, it means I won't look my age when I grow older. Muahaha! But then, I'm not the only one with the kiddish looks. Bright looks like a kid too and he claims that I was getting back at him for saying that I look like an 11 year. Tch tch.

Serene and Spencer went maksiat-ing and I'm left behind with Bright and Kai Soon. So we went to the kid's arcade in Jusco to play Space Hockey or whatever you call that thing with two 'sticks' on the table with a flat disc which you hit using those 'sticks' while, uh, gliding the 'sticks' on the table. XD I don't know what the hell I just wrote.

Kai Soon played against Bright in the first and second round then Bright challenged me. Muahaha I BEAT him 7-2. Sad thing that he lost all 3 rounds. =P Then those two went to play the drums game.

We went to Borders after that and we spend our time there, waiting for the two love birds to finish maksiat-ing. I tell you, it's so BLOODY COLD till I was practically shivering all over. No kidding man. Mr and Mrs. Martin came to Borders around 5 and Serene and I left Queens after that.

Yes, I know my post is boring. I'm not really in the mood to blog la. No mood for anything nowadays. Sheesh...

That'd be all for now. When I feel like it, I'll blog on my birthday.

Here's a little video I created. Heheh. Watch it.

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

xX Shaun.

Even If

2008-07-28T08:14:00.000-07:00

When the sun doesn't shine
When the moon runs and hide
When the shadows cover the ground
You are still the love of my life

Even if the sun refuses to shine
Even if the moon was to run and hide
Even if the shadows covered the ground
Even if the pathways couldn't be found
Even if my eyes failed to see the way
This is the testimony I would say
That you have always brought me through the night
You are still the love of my life

Saturday School; Fuc-TOOT-

2008-07-26T07:00:00.000-07:00

I can't believe that I woke up in time to go to school today since I came home pretty late last night. Heheh, I went out to kai kai again. XD

That Celia want to kena from me edi.

She said she WILL BE IN SCHOOL.

Her bayang pun tak nampak. =.=

Anyway, we only had like 2 hours of lessons today which is History and Chemistry.

And Zingwei, no I'm not trying to bodek Ms. Koay.

I bukan pembodek. Haha

We ate in class in front of Pn. Ivy since she's not teaching.

The best thing bout this teacher is that she can close one eye when it comes to certain things like this. Come on la, eating in class is something triffle.

It's not like it's a big sin or something, right?

And Pn. Ivy even ate in class with us. Muahaha!

Biology was bloody stupid and retarded.

SLEEPY VOICE WAS NOT IN SCHOOL!

Hallelujah

Evonne buat business in school and Izni became the speaker/presenter for the clothes that Evonne is selling.

After that, I taught the class bad words, stuffs. XD

Eh, it's related to Bio you know coz we're learning Reproduction and Growth now.

So yeah, I looked up fellatio for them to learn up. Heheh

Then Evonne put in the CD-Rom that Sleepy Voice use to teach us.

That girl ar, fuiyoh, her brains ar, not that innocent I tell you.

Putting all gila answers for the questions all.

Tch tch.

Izni kena, Mallisah kena, Adele pun kena.

I mean for the names she put in the answers she created.

The question goes like this,

'Why is sexual reproduction important?'

Or something like that, I can't really remember.

So that girl type in something that goes like this

'So that Izni can continue her genetic -something something- with N****'

Then I tak ingat edi.

Was busy talking. =P

So yeah that's about it la.

And, I'm too bloody lazy to write bout Speech Day.

xX Shaun.

Blah...

2008-07-25T08:59:00.000-07:00

I'm not in the mood to blog so I'mma post up lyrics to two of my current favourite songs right now.

Ahmir - Come Back Lyrics

I'm in pain, but I understand the things you're trying to say.
So if its too late and I can't create a way to fix my mistakes
I'll be on my way to another state I won't stay another day.
Just say the word and I'll be on my curb (I think)
Cause that's all that I deserve.

Don't want nobody else but you.
Won't settle for somebody new.
Don't wanna live this life without you.
I need you here with me right now..

You ever wanted something so bad that you just can't have??
You ever needed that one thing that's not in your grasp.
It's you that I'm wanting and needing like that.
So baby do me this favor and come right on back to me..

On my own, I'm not feeling strong, and I'm gonna stay alone.
Cause moving on is not what I want, the thought of it feels so wrong.
I call your phone, your never home and I'm tired of that ring back tone.
Just speak to me so I can live the dream of being back in ur arms..

Don't want nobody else but you.
Won't settle for somebody new.
Don't wanna live this life without you.
I need you here with me right now..

You ever wanted something so bad that you just can't have??
You ever needed that one thing that's not in your grasp.
It's you that I'm wanting and needing like that.
So baby do me this favor and come right on back to me..

Ever wanted something so bad
Ever needed something not in your grasp
It's you that I'm wanting like that
So do me this favor...
Ever wanted somerthing so bad ((said I want you))
Ever needed something not in your grasp (oooh oooh oooh))
It's you that I'm wanting like that ((like that))
So do me this favor...

So baby do me this favor and come right on back to me
You ever wanted something so bad that you just can't have??
You ever needed that one thing that's not in your grasp??
It's you that I'm wanting and needing like that.
So baby do me this favor and come right on back to me..
Come right on back, come right on back to me...

Usher - His Mistakes (I Can't Win)

Do I remind you of the pain
That he put you through, girl
Is that the reason I’m to blame
Before I do it…
Is it because he, treated you so badly
I always stand accused
Protecting yourself, from somebody else
I’m not who’s hurting you

And it’s killing me girl you compare me to him
Always guilty before the sin
I can’t win, I can’t win
I’ll do anything to prove I love you
Baby girl would I refuse to
Pay for something I didn’t do
I love you, girl
But I refuse to stay
Paying for his mistakes

He left a scar across your heart
I understand, girl
Don’t let his wrongs tear us apart
Cause girl I’m your man

Just because he did
You swear I’m cheating
You think I just don’t care
Why must I do time
For another man’s crime
Girl you know that aint fair

And it’s killing me girl you compare me to him
Always guilty before the sin
I can’t win, I can’t win
I’ll do anything to prove I love you
Baby girl would I refuse to
Pay for something I didn’t do
I love you, girl
But I refuse to stay
Paying for his mistakes

I know he did you wrong
But tell me what does that have to do with me
Trying to show you something real
Figure out what is going on
Before you look up and I’ll be gone..
I’ll do anything to prove I love you
Baby girl but I refuse
To pay for something I didn’t do, girl
I love you, and I love you I love you

I’ll do anything to prove I love you
Baby girl but I refuse
To pay for something I didn’t do, no
I love you, girl
But I refuse to stay
Paying for his mistakes

Updates; Whoopee! XD

2008-07-24T06:15:00.000-07:00

July 22nd

Serene S.T. and I went to Prangin to watch a movie. I waited for the stupid Rapid bus to come for around one and a half hours and still no sign of that BLOODY bus. Konon la, they improve the bus service. My ass la. I could have waited longer but Serene's already in Prangin so I had to call a taxi instead. RM15 gone just like that. A big THANK YOU to the Rapid buses la. Bloody fuck =.=

Reached Prangin around 4.45pm then Serene and I went to this restaurant called TaiHe to eat. I ordered something called Cheese Chicken Baked Rice and damn! It tastes just like heaven man! It's seriously that nice and even the tomyam is just FUIYOH!! Spicy and sour, just the way I like it. Haha. Oh yeah, the food's cheap too. Good food that's cheap =D The no. 1 place to dine for cheapskates like me. Muahaha!

After our meal, we went up to the cinema to buy tickets for Kuntilanak 3. We were the only ones who bought the tickets for that movie. YAY! A whole cinema to ourselves and we're watching a horror movie. XD Since the movie will only start 25 minutes later, we walked around. There are many shops on sale but then the clothes in Prangin are not to my liking anymore. It's uh, kinda lala-ish. I tak suka. We went to Eikojia to look for earrings and I saw spikes there. I thought that those spikes wouldn't fit my wrist, considering the skinny ass that I am and mana tau, it fits! For the first time, I finally managed to find a bracelet that fits my wrist. WHOOP WHOOP! Xin Yi will be so jealous. =P

We went up to the cinema after a while coz Serene wants to use the toilet. That bloody idiot bloody switched off the lights while I was walking out from the toilet. Idiot, so dark la. Dah la, that toilet looks so eerie edi, some more want to switch off the lights. I must have looked like an idiot while trying to swing open the almost closing door and running out from the toilet. Tch tch.

Thought the thought of having the whole cinema to yourself is fun to think of at first, we chickened out when we look inside the cinema from the outside. Suddenly, the cinema just looked so big and dark (well, duh, it's suppose to be dark), not to mention scary. Lucky for us, we weren't the only ones in the cinema. A Malay couple was behind us when we were looking inside the cinema and only then, we were brave enough to enter the cinema. Lmao. Serene and I were the only ones screaming and screaming our heads off. Well, she screamed and as for me, it sounds more like a whimper. Haha. Didn't manage to watch the movie clearly as my hands was constantly on my face. Serene lagi hebat, hide behind her bag. XD

If you like horror movies, Kuntilanak 3 os highly recommended.

July 23rd

School's just blah-ish these days. Sometimes I just don't like going to school, just wanna skip and skip and skip. If it weren't because I'm having SPM this year, I would have skipped like nobody's business just like last yeart, right after the end of term exams.

Putting that aside, Mr. Koay will make a good priest with his "Thou shall not"s. XD His latest "Thou shall not"s are:

"Thou shall not influence your teacher to do bad things that are not lawful"

and,

"Thou shall not CONTAMINATE your teacher!"

So funny la that teacher. So much better than that Sleepy Voice, no sense of humour at all. Tch tch.

As for today, Kaan gave a speech. Haha a very stupid speech. Here's how it goes.

Gayathiri and Prashan were in front in the class holding up the banner that they used for the Teacher's Day dance. Kaan came in front, looking all formal and she gave this speech.

"Saya sebagai Menteri Besar Pulau Pinang ingin mengucap sedikit sebanyak tentang...( I don't know what she said here, her voice was too soft). 5 Mahir telah mencapai tahap yang paling terendah sekali! Anda sepatutnya berbangga terhadap pencapaian ini. Saya mengharapkan bahawa kalian terus akan - (someone was talking) Masa saya cakap, kamu pun cakap. (She paused for a while before continuing) Untuk mendapat kejayaan ini, saya tahu kalian sangat-sangat - (Florence came in and talked to Prashan) Eh, siapa ini! ( She waited for Florence to leave before continuing again) Susah sekali untuk mencapai kejayaan ini. Semua orang menghadap ke depan, kalian semua menghadap ke belakang."

Then I don't know what she said coz it was too noisy edi but I know it was something bout 'jamban'.

Tch tch that girl ar, very pandai at this type of things la.

Anyway, my birthday is coming up and me mummy is coming home too. YAY-ness.
What I want for my birthday:

JACK DANIELS

CHIVAS REGAL

MARGARITA

I'm in dire need of liquor. Blah...

That stupid father of mine better get me a laptop or I'll set his house on fire. Grr.

A song from my current favourite band, Armor for Sleep.

Armor for Sleep - Somebody Else's Arms

Saw you laughing aloud to your friends when I was across the room,
I was across the room.
I sick of standing alone when you’re here.
Who’s good enough for you?
Who’s good enough for you?

Well it’s only love it’s not real anyways.
You’re gonna die in somebody else’s arms
And I have to live with that.
You’re gonna die in somebody else’s arms
And I have to live with that.
Well I hope you have a good life, hope you have a good life.
Well I hope you have a good life, hope you have a good life.

And I’ll say "Send me a card when you can, to where you think you should be."
Are where you think you should be?
Too bad, you’re missing the boat and I’m gone.
Call me when you come around.
Will you call me when you come around?

Well it’s only love it’s not real anyways.
It’s only love, it’s not real.
You’re gonna die in somebody else’s arms,
And I have to live with that.
You’re gonna die in somebody else’s arms,
And I have to live with that.
Well I hope you have a good life, hope you have a good life.
Well I hope you have a good life, hope you have a good life.

I’ll be happy to see you happy, if it’s with me or without me around.
I’ll be happy to see you happy, if it’s with me or without me around.

There’s too much, too much I know I’ll never say.
Please take me back, please take me back.

But you’re gonna die in somebody else’s arms,
And I have to live with that.
You’re gonna die in somebody else’s arms,
And I have to live with that. (I have to live)
Well I hope you have a good life, hope you have a good life. [x4]

xX Shaun.

Confesiones de un corazón roto

2008-07-21T06:18:00.000-07:00

Días van y vienen,
Mis sentimientos por ti siguen siendo los mismos,
Amando usted sólo romper mi corazón,
Yo sé, pero aún sigue su
tan difícil de soltar el
recuerdos que todavía me atormenta,
Usted le gusta y yo sólo
tener que estar atento usted le gusta,
Leer todos esas notas de amor
que usted escribió para él,
Decir de cómo se le pierda
y la necesidad para que él,
Es la misma para mí que usted,
¿Cómo irónico puede ser esto?
Tal vez sólo estoy en mejor situación
a pie de este,
Coz no quiero escuchar
rompiendo mi corazón en una
mil piezas de nuevo...

Songs of the moment:
Stevie Hoang - Addicted
Marcos Hernandez - The Way I Do
I still bloody love this song.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad,
Didn't wanna wake up,
And find that I was falling so fast,
Didn't wanna need you,
Didn't wanna need anyone,
Now look what you've done,

Now I can't go on without you,
I'm naked, I can't fake it,
And I'm not that strong without you,
Never thought I could love you the way I do,
Way I do...

xX Shaun.

Top 10 Bands in My Miserable Life

2008-07-19T05:20:00.000-07:00

I'm bored so I'll just post up a list of the bands that I like. Current favourites is more like it. XD
Before I start writing bout my favourite bands, here's what happen yesterday in school.

Well, my mood really tak bagus nowadays la.

So it's no wonder that I lose my temper so bloody easily.

During Bio, I quarrelled with Sleepy Voice. Yes, I yelled at her. Been dying to do that since like 6 months ago. Blah

Here's what happen.

Celia was writing something on the invitation 'card' that Sheline( and Eline) gave out. Then that Sleepy Voice saw her writing and she stopped teaching and started asking questions. First she asked Laureene what's the paper about. She kept quiet, not sure on how to answer her. Then Kaan said it's Sheline and Eline's birthday invitation. Sleepy Voice turned and gave them THE look and started asking them stupid questions. =.= I was already starting to feel pissed off coz of the way she looked and talked to the twins la. I mean what's her problem with them la?

After that, she asked Celia what she was writing on the paper and that's where I jumped in.

Sleepy Voice; Me

Celia, what are you writing on the paper?

Teacher, she was writing Bio notes on the paper la.

What! She was not writing Bio notes. I saw her writing on the yellow paper. How dare you say that she wrote Bio notes?

Yeah la! She wrote notes ON the YELLOW PAPER!

Shauni, you shouldn't be involved in this!

Whatever...*turns and glares at the table*

Don't give me that look! I don't like it.

*turns and glare at Sleepy Voice*

That's rebellion you know.

Fine then, I shall smile at you then.

And I really did smiled at her. =.=

Then she continued nagging and nagging. Simbeguenca

So that's what happen.

Moving on to my Top 10 list then.

Top 10 Bands

1. Paramore

Paramore is one the best bands around! Hands down! Haha and there's Hayley Williams in it too *winks winks*

2. Amber Pacific

Heck! Amber Pacific is one heckuva great all-guys band. XD Check them out and you won't regret it.

3. The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Not a bad band, seriously. Bloody in love with their Seventeen Ain't So Sweet. Very meaningful song.

4. Lostprophets

Why I like this band? The lead singer banyak cool la. LMAO

5. Secondhand Serenade

This band has the best acoustic songs around.

6. The Veronicas

Yes, they ARE a band. Haha. Hot, hot. Sizzling HOT. XD

7. Faber Drive

A band worth checking out too.

8. Sum 41

My all-time favourite band =]

9. Daughtry

I've been a Daughtry fan ever since I heard It's Not Over. Lol.

10. The Summer Obsession

If you listen to almost all the bands listed here, you'll surely love The Summer Obsession.

Right, that's about all I guess.

Before I end, here's a birthday shoutout.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHELINE AND ELINE!!!

I'm a little lazy to go search for their pics in Friendster. Yes, I know I'm lazy. Sue me =P

I'm such a genius =.= Faceless. Cheh. Besides that,
I've gotta stop being emo.

xX Shaun.

Concerts; AHHH!!

2008-07-17T08:17:00.000-07:00

Damn! It sucks to live in Penang sometimes. GRR! You know why? The most happening concerts and gigs are mostly in KL!! Damn it yo! And I WANT and NEED to go to MTV Asia Award!

JARED LETO IS HOSTING MAA!!!

Look, look, the frontman of 30 Seconds to Mars, the ONE AND ONLY Jared Leto, baby! XD

I know I'm acting crazy but who cares!

I gotta reload my phone and start calling hit.fm for those mosh pit passes or however you spell them.

Not only that, Daughtry, One Republic, Leona Lewis and I don't know who else will be there. Damn

Okay, enough of MAA. Here a list of concerts to come.

Artistry - July 19th

feat. Flo Rida, DJ Vandal, Popshuvit, Machi

Sony Ericsson Traffic Jam - July 26th

feat. Daughtry

MTV Asia Awards - August 2nd

feat. A LOT OF ARTISTES XD

Panic! At The Disco - August 5th

And for a little local flavour.

Campur Chart Goes Live Tour 4 - July 26th

Venue: Carmen Bistro, City Bayview Hotel, Penang

Bands Performing: Love Me Butch, The Otherside Orchestra, purevibracion, Bittersweet, Deja Voodoo Spells and One Buck Short

The best thing about this is that admission is free!

And for once, a local gig is held in Penang.

Tch tch, Altered Frequency or Frequency Canon or maybe Estranged should perform here in Penang too. Tch tch.

I guess, that's about it for today. And, you fellas better pray for me to win those MAA passes! Lmao.

Toodles!

xX Shaun.

Writing Skills Gone Down The Drain; Kill Me

2008-07-09T06:49:00.000-07:00

I tried my hand at writing a poem after such a long time and sad to say, I've lost my skill!! GOD! Not like what I'll usually write. It sucks and it makes no sense. To me it doesn't makes any sense la.

Well you be the judge then. Haha.

I wished I've gotten over you in

the year before we got together,

So I wouldn't have to pick up the

pieces that are broken once again,

Yes, I am still very much captivated

by you; that's my confession,

Forgive me for pushing you away at time; know

that I'm afraid to fall like I did before,

Constantly I've been thinking; wondering if I

should move on or wait like a fool,

Or maybe, just maybe it's time to close these

open arms; walk away from this mess I've choose

to fall into,

Forget about 'us'; there's only 'you' and 'me' now...

Blah. It sucks I know. I've lost my touch. Ish.

xX Shaun.

Life as it is.

Lookie! I found a nice quote...I know, it's emo but what the hell...Emo quotes best describe what I feel.

For today's quote, it shall be:

"Unspoken love is like a poison. If you keep it to yourself for a long

time, it will consume you from the inside."

Heh, it already did.

xX Shaun K.

The L Word

New Skin

The Gay-est Day

Without You

It's CREEPING 'round the corner.

Trials sucked to the very core!

I miss you

Nothing much

Prom; Class of 08

Menjaga Hati

Blissful As Can Be

Even If

Saturday School; Fuc-TOOT-

Blah...

Updates; Whoopee! XD

Confesiones de un corazón roto

Top 10 Bands in My Miserable Life

Concerts; AHHH!!

Writing Skills Gone Down The Drain; Kill Me

Lookie! I found a nice quote...
I know, it's emo but what the hell...
Emo quotes best describe what I feel.