Friday, October 30, 2009
I felt like kissing the floor when I found something that I want.
Okay, maybe not exactly want.
Gah, I can't think of that word.
My English is rotting after months of disuse.
I.should.start.writing.again. *dies*
No.
I should start reading the dictionary again. *dies horribly*
1. My guitar skills is well, uh, not improving.
Kevin owe me tabs for Love Story and Apologize.
No tabs, no improvements.
And...my song is stuck where it is.
Verse and chorus - settled.
Bridge - Uh-oh.
Lyrics - Not even close to completing a verse.
It's my laziness to continue composing and writing actually.
I find no point in continuing the song for only one reason we are all too familiar with.
Yes baby, it's pointlessnesses time again.
Lalalala.
2. Inglorious Basterds was boring.
Almost fell asleep in the cinema just by watching history getting twisted.
Holocaust or not, it still leads back to the same thing: Violence.
Bla bla bla.
I wanna watch Ninja.
Bla, more violence.
3. Wanting to be alone is definitely NOT a form of emo-ness.
Wanting to keep my silence is definitely NOT a form of emo-ness either.
Not wanting to smile is my god-damn bloody problem and it's definitely NOT a form of emo-ness.
Okay, I admit my previous blog posts have been nothing but emo crap. =.=
Screw me.
4. Bailey's Irish Cream is L.O.V.E.
Look at the richness and smoothness of the liquor.
Magnífico. Fabuloso. Aah, amor; Bailey es el amor. >=]
Would some kind soul get this as my Christmas Present? XD
5. My note pad hath now become my sketch pad.
Doodles after doodles.
PR's such a bore.
It bites.
It kills.
It's...dry.
Hence, doodles are born.
I want more tattoos. *whines*
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.
Okay, maybe not exactly want.
Gah, I can't think of that word.
My English is rotting after months of disuse.
I.should.start.writing.again. *dies*
No.
I should start reading the dictionary again. *dies horribly*
1. My guitar skills is well, uh, not improving.
Kevin owe me tabs for Love Story and Apologize.
No tabs, no improvements.
And...my song is stuck where it is.
Verse and chorus - settled.
Bridge - Uh-oh.
Lyrics - Not even close to completing a verse.
It's my laziness to continue composing and writing actually.
I find no point in continuing the song for only one reason we are all too familiar with.
Yes baby, it's pointlessnesses time again.
Lalalala.
2. Inglorious Basterds was boring.
Almost fell asleep in the cinema just by watching history getting twisted.
Holocaust or not, it still leads back to the same thing: Violence.
Bla bla bla.
I wanna watch Ninja.
Bla, more violence.
3. Wanting to be alone is definitely NOT a form of emo-ness.
Wanting to keep my silence is definitely NOT a form of emo-ness either.
Not wanting to smile is my god-damn bloody problem and it's definitely NOT a form of emo-ness.
Okay, I admit my previous blog posts have been nothing but emo crap. =.=
Screw me.
4. Bailey's Irish Cream is L.O.V.E.
Look at the richness and smoothness of the liquor.
Magnífico. Fabuloso. Aah, amor; Bailey es el amor. >=]
Would some kind soul get this as my Christmas Present? XD
5. My note pad hath now become my sketch pad.
Doodles after doodles.
PR's such a bore.
It bites.
It kills.
It's...dry.
Hence, doodles are born.
I want more tattoos. *whines*
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.
Varsity - Baby Steps
Oh yes, definitely tryna start over again.
It's high time for reformation.
xX Shaun K.
Oh yes, definitely tryna start over again.
It's high time for reformation.
xX Shaun K.
Life bites, so deal with it.
8:23 AM
8:23 AM
Thursday, October 22, 2009
I found the perfect song! YAY!
And I'm posting up the lyrics here.
WHOOO!!
Everytime I get to look upon your face
I feel like my soul is dying
Everytime I reach for you its empty space
I feel like my heart is crying for you
I hate to be away from you but I'll..
I'll understand if you can't give me all I've dreamed of
But I'll still be waiting, cause I can't get over you..
When we were in love..
You told me I was your angel
You were the one
What can I do
What do I say
You took our forever and ever away
Away.. away..
You took our forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. forever away..)
You took our forever and ever away
It's like I'm stuck in one place
I just keep going around
I can't keep wondering around so i just..
Took my heart up off the plate
Cause I continue to cry
I don't know why I keep trying.. to fit a picture in this frame
You just break it everyday (but I can't get over you)
My mind is telling me to leave
In my heart I just don't know what to do
Cause I can't get over you
When we were in love..
You told me you were my angel
And I was the one
What can I do
What do I say
You took my forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. ever away..)
You took our forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. ever away..)
You took our forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. ever away..)
You took out forever and ever away
So how can I love you
When you made me believe that it was only me.. me..
How can I trust you when you deserved to leave
What made you lie to me.. me..
How can I touch you
I feel it in your touch
There's no room for us
How can I want you (uh huh)
When I deserved to be with someone who truly loves me.. yeah.. yeah..
I'm talking on a daily
She got me goin' crazy
My baby ain't the same as
As all these people sayin'
And I ain't really patient
But I'm debatin', waitin',
Cause she be hesitatin',
And she gon' slip a mistake in
Thinkin' I put my faith in
How could this help the datin'
She ain't participatin,
And if I'm not mistaken
Late at night the phone vibratin'
Translation nigga's cakin'
My trust is slowly breakin'
So I'm the one that's breakin'
Was it the weather baby
You said forever baby
And through the rain and the storm I was your shelter baby
I'm looking at your picture,
This is my coldest winter,
I'm feeling like december
I'm feeling like december
Forever and ever away.. ever away..
This numbness within me just keep increasing with the passing days.
Maybe, just maybe, I'm finally able to say no to you?
xX Shaun K.
And I'm posting up the lyrics here.
WHOOO!!
Everytime I get to look upon your face
I feel like my soul is dying
Everytime I reach for you its empty space
I feel like my heart is crying for you
I hate to be away from you but I'll..
I'll understand if you can't give me all I've dreamed of
But I'll still be waiting, cause I can't get over you..
When we were in love..
You told me I was your angel
You were the one
What can I do
What do I say
You took our forever and ever away
Away.. away..
You took our forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. forever away..)
You took our forever and ever away
It's like I'm stuck in one place
I just keep going around
I can't keep wondering around so i just..
Took my heart up off the plate
Cause I continue to cry
I don't know why I keep trying.. to fit a picture in this frame
You just break it everyday (but I can't get over you)
My mind is telling me to leave
In my heart I just don't know what to do
Cause I can't get over you
When we were in love..
You told me you were my angel
And I was the one
What can I do
What do I say
You took my forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. ever away..)
You took our forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. ever away..)
You took our forever and ever away
(forever and ever.. away.. ever away..)
You took out forever and ever away
So how can I love you
When you made me believe that it was only me.. me..
How can I trust you when you deserved to leave
What made you lie to me.. me..
How can I touch you
I feel it in your touch
There's no room for us
How can I want you (uh huh)
When I deserved to be with someone who truly loves me.. yeah.. yeah..
I'm talking on a daily
She got me goin' crazy
My baby ain't the same as
As all these people sayin'
And I ain't really patient
But I'm debatin', waitin',
Cause she be hesitatin',
And she gon' slip a mistake in
Thinkin' I put my faith in
How could this help the datin'
She ain't participatin,
And if I'm not mistaken
Late at night the phone vibratin'
Translation nigga's cakin'
My trust is slowly breakin'
So I'm the one that's breakin'
Was it the weather baby
You said forever baby
And through the rain and the storm I was your shelter baby
I'm looking at your picture,
This is my coldest winter,
I'm feeling like december
I'm feeling like december
Forever and ever away.. ever away..
This numbness within me just keep increasing with the passing days.
Maybe, just maybe, I'm finally able to say no to you?
xX Shaun K.
Life bites, so deal with it.
8:07 AM
8:07 AM
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Great, I've got squiggly lines in my head...again.
Fcuk. =.=
This isn't suppose to happen.
No.
It's suppose to be a "No, NEVER" thing.
Sigh.
xX Shaun K.
Life bites, so deal with it.
2:34 AM
2:34 AM
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Well, I couldn't resist posting up another post.
So yeah x)
Looking back if we had one more night to spend,
I would steal every second I would never let it end,
Like the taste of your lips what I'd give to drink you in,
I will always remember and I know that it goes with me,
I will never leave this part of you behind,
What I miss overall is a smile I can't replace,
'Cause it starts in your eyes and,
It filled up all the space in my heart,
I know I will always remember and
I know that it goes with me,
I will never leave this part of you behind,
With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on,
I want to but I wanted you,
Now you stay in my head,
I'm not over you yet,
I try to but I wanted you,
Make no mistake I'm here in this place,
And I'm waiting around for you,
And I can't help it I'm still searching,
For some way to get through,
I will always remember...
xX Shaun K.
So yeah x)
Looking back if we had one more night to spend,
I would steal every second I would never let it end,
Like the taste of your lips what I'd give to drink you in,
I will always remember and I know that it goes with me,
I will never leave this part of you behind,
What I miss overall is a smile I can't replace,
'Cause it starts in your eyes and,
It filled up all the space in my heart,
I know I will always remember and
I know that it goes with me,
I will never leave this part of you behind,
With you gone it plays on it's so hard to move on,
I want to but I wanted you,
Now you stay in my head,
I'm not over you yet,
I try to but I wanted you,
Make no mistake I'm here in this place,
And I'm waiting around for you,
And I can't help it I'm still searching,
For some way to get through,
I will always remember...
Ryan Cabrera - With You Gone
xX Shaun K.
Life bites, so deal with it.
9:46 AM
9:46 AM
I can't bear to part,
Nor can I bear to forget,
Memories cease bringing meanings,
But, why can't I stop my futile efforts?
Reasons are what I need,
How do I reason when everything feels dead?
To sacrifice this festering heart,
I definitely can't wait.
20 more hours to go...
Am I just imagining the little sparks of fire?
Or am I still stuck?
xX Shaun K.
Nor can I bear to forget,
Memories cease bringing meanings,
But, why can't I stop my futile efforts?
Reasons are what I need,
How do I reason when everything feels dead?
To sacrifice this festering heart,
I definitely can't wait.
20 more hours to go...
Am I just imagining the little sparks of fire?
Or am I still stuck?
xX Shaun K.
Life bites, so deal with it.
8:10 AM
8:10 AM
Friday, October 9, 2009
Found this somewhere on the internet. XD
Once upon a time, a long time ago, I fell in love. And there was laughing and funny breaths and happiness. There was much rejoicing. And then, SHUT! Over. Gone. Dead. Completely cut off. Disconnected. The taste still fresh in my mouth. The smell still linger on my skin. The feeling left in my fingertips. But I can't get that feeling back. I may spend my entire life trying to get back into that Polaroid. Fighting all the way. The best thing I have ever known. Even now, years later, anytime I come close to it I want to dive in. Sink or swim. I don't care. I would give anything to be even in the room next to it. Across the street. A breath away. Remembering what I never let myself forget. Looking someone in the eye and knowing; another time, another place, it is right there. In front of me. Within reach. Just open my fingers and wrap them around it. Hold it tightly. And never let it go. Never. Never. I fought. I fought hard. But only with myself. Sometimes I wonder if I should have fought harder. With her. With it. Tried to work it out. It all made sense for about fifteen seconds. Just enough time to say, “You're right”. “What the hell was I thinking?” Why didn't I say . . . . something. My line of thinking was…if she doesn't want it, I don't want to push it. Why try to keep her where she doesn't want to be? But she did want to be there. She had to. She was happy. There were nights I cried. When we were together and then I took her home and on the way home I cried. Not because I was sad, or even missed her already, but because I was happy. So happy I couldn't contain myself. I talked to God. Whether I believed in him or not. And I said thank you. Over and over. Again and again. I couldn't believe it was real. That I could actually touch her. Kiss her. Look into her perfect green eyes and see myself. But I could. I had seen her before. IN the coffee shop. And I said to myself, I would give up everything if she would even turn my way. She was light years beyond me. Another plane. Another class. Confident, beautiful, at peace. So sure. Not for me. I couldn't even dream it. No way could I ever make it real. Did she feel what I felt? I have to believe she did. If I didn't it would be so hard to breathe. So hard to get up in the morning. So hard to be. No one will be her. No one will have those green eyes. No one will have that one lock of hair hiding all her secrets. And no one, ever again (shudder) will make me whole. Not like that. I'm scared. I'm so scared. What if it is real? What if never? What if I'm right? Do you ever wonder, do you ever ask yourself, “Can I live without love??” .“Can I open my eyes?” I'm afraid to. There is a feeling. You know it. This trembling completeness. This warmth. That makes everything big. And you are ten feet tall all the time. Everyone is looking at you. You are the one. The one she chose. The one she calls when everything is wrong, and when everything is right! She is the one who reaches out for you. For me. She once said, “I need you.” I was done. That was what I was looking for all my life. Those words. For something so pure as this creature to need ME! Could not be real. Could not be my life. But it was. Of course, it WAS! It isn't anymore. It is gone. So far away. And it will never be there again. I see little pieces of it everywhere. A glance, a smile, a touch. I feel desperate. I feel alone. So much out there. But I only want to hear one thing. Not sure what. But I will know. If I ever get the chance. I will stretch out my fingers, grasp it tightly, and NEVER LET IT GO! But till then; I will be here. With my open hand. And my desperate heart. And my cold skin. Slowly, regrettably, forgetting just enough that I can survive from one day to the next. To remember is to suffer. To see what was and then look at what is. To hear a voice, feel my heart stop. Watch my breath stutter in the cold. She… She can be almost anyone. She can read me like a book. I will open to any page for anyone. Cover to cover. Nothing to hide. Not the fear, the pain, or the hopelessness. It is all there. Large print ; easy to read. Secrets dissolve in tears. Dissipating into honesty, innocence, need. I was lost and now I'm found. I was blind but now I see. Maybe I don't want to...
xX Shaun K.
Once upon a time, a long time ago, I fell in love. And there was laughing and funny breaths and happiness. There was much rejoicing. And then, SHUT! Over. Gone. Dead. Completely cut off. Disconnected. The taste still fresh in my mouth. The smell still linger on my skin. The feeling left in my fingertips. But I can't get that feeling back. I may spend my entire life trying to get back into that Polaroid. Fighting all the way. The best thing I have ever known. Even now, years later, anytime I come close to it I want to dive in. Sink or swim. I don't care. I would give anything to be even in the room next to it. Across the street. A breath away. Remembering what I never let myself forget. Looking someone in the eye and knowing; another time, another place, it is right there. In front of me. Within reach. Just open my fingers and wrap them around it. Hold it tightly. And never let it go. Never. Never. I fought. I fought hard. But only with myself. Sometimes I wonder if I should have fought harder. With her. With it. Tried to work it out. It all made sense for about fifteen seconds. Just enough time to say, “You're right”. “What the hell was I thinking?” Why didn't I say . . . . something. My line of thinking was…if she doesn't want it, I don't want to push it. Why try to keep her where she doesn't want to be? But she did want to be there. She had to. She was happy. There were nights I cried. When we were together and then I took her home and on the way home I cried. Not because I was sad, or even missed her already, but because I was happy. So happy I couldn't contain myself. I talked to God. Whether I believed in him or not. And I said thank you. Over and over. Again and again. I couldn't believe it was real. That I could actually touch her. Kiss her. Look into her perfect green eyes and see myself. But I could. I had seen her before. IN the coffee shop. And I said to myself, I would give up everything if she would even turn my way. She was light years beyond me. Another plane. Another class. Confident, beautiful, at peace. So sure. Not for me. I couldn't even dream it. No way could I ever make it real. Did she feel what I felt? I have to believe she did. If I didn't it would be so hard to breathe. So hard to get up in the morning. So hard to be. No one will be her. No one will have those green eyes. No one will have that one lock of hair hiding all her secrets. And no one, ever again (shudder) will make me whole. Not like that. I'm scared. I'm so scared. What if it is real? What if never? What if I'm right? Do you ever wonder, do you ever ask yourself, “Can I live without love??” .“Can I open my eyes?” I'm afraid to. There is a feeling. You know it. This trembling completeness. This warmth. That makes everything big. And you are ten feet tall all the time. Everyone is looking at you. You are the one. The one she chose. The one she calls when everything is wrong, and when everything is right! She is the one who reaches out for you. For me. She once said, “I need you.” I was done. That was what I was looking for all my life. Those words. For something so pure as this creature to need ME! Could not be real. Could not be my life. But it was. Of course, it WAS! It isn't anymore. It is gone. So far away. And it will never be there again. I see little pieces of it everywhere. A glance, a smile, a touch. I feel desperate. I feel alone. So much out there. But I only want to hear one thing. Not sure what. But I will know. If I ever get the chance. I will stretch out my fingers, grasp it tightly, and NEVER LET IT GO! But till then; I will be here. With my open hand. And my desperate heart. And my cold skin. Slowly, regrettably, forgetting just enough that I can survive from one day to the next. To remember is to suffer. To see what was and then look at what is. To hear a voice, feel my heart stop. Watch my breath stutter in the cold. She… She can be almost anyone. She can read me like a book. I will open to any page for anyone. Cover to cover. Nothing to hide. Not the fear, the pain, or the hopelessness. It is all there. Large print ; easy to read. Secrets dissolve in tears. Dissipating into honesty, innocence, need. I was lost and now I'm found. I was blind but now I see. Maybe I don't want to...
xX Shaun K.
Life bites, so deal with it.
9:18 AM
9:18 AM
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Okayyy.
So my blog died...again.
Just like the owner. x)
Oh well.
Not much to update about actually.
Hmm maybe I'll write a little of what I'm feeling now?
So, we prove that we were crazy when we decided to give some unknown driver a free show in the form of tecktonik and lala poses in Pulau Tikus. XD
It was fun though, to be able to bring smiles/ laughter to people's faces. XD
Ahh scratch that.
That was totally a random thought.
Okay laaa.
I shall start ranting now that my blog is set to private.
Muahahaha!
That means YOU can't read what I wrote.
Oh man. XD
Riiggghhhhttt...
So I've been feeling a little hopeless ever since I found out that the person that you love with all your heart is none other than...him. =.=
Died over and over again just by watching how close the two of you were in college.
Oh well, 2 years isn't that long now is it? =(
I guess I could live with all these shit. *sigh*
AND, it really broke me when I heard that you hate yourself a lot for hurting me.
Girl, you shouldn't be hating yourself when I'm the one that brings this pain upon myself. *sigh*
But to act indifferent I must.
As much as I wanna be close to you, I can't.
I see his shadow in your eyes.
That's why whenever you are near, I'll just walk away to be on my own.
It's too much to look into those eyes.
Too unbearable to look your way coz all I see is him being next to you, making you laugh.
ARGHHH!!
To hell with these shitty feelings man.
I tried to get over you, you know?
Tried and failed so many times that I'm just so sick and tired of trying anymore.
AND, I'm definitely sick and tired of reading your plurks about him.
It only spells more heartaches for me.
Damn me. =.=
I can't complete with your walking checklist.
Never did stand a chance from the very start.
I think I'll just stop here before it leads to something else more...private.
This is something I found so yeah, I'll just post it up. x)
I miss you, I need you. If only you knew the pain I feel when I'm not with you and I'm thinking about you all day which never makes the pain go away. The pain I have knowing that this might be my last day, my last breath, that you may be my last kiss, my last love. The pain you put me through, I hope you never have to feel because the pain makes you not want to feel.
xX Shaun.
So my blog died...again.
Just like the owner. x)
Oh well.
Not much to update about actually.
Hmm maybe I'll write a little of what I'm feeling now?
So, we prove that we were crazy when we decided to give some unknown driver a free show in the form of tecktonik and lala poses in Pulau Tikus. XD
It was fun though, to be able to bring smiles/ laughter to people's faces. XD
Ahh scratch that.
That was totally a random thought.
Okay laaa.
I shall start ranting now that my blog is set to private.
Muahahaha!
That means YOU can't read what I wrote.
Oh man. XD
Riiggghhhhttt...
So I've been feeling a little hopeless ever since I found out that the person that you love with all your heart is none other than...him. =.=
Died over and over again just by watching how close the two of you were in college.
Oh well, 2 years isn't that long now is it? =(
I guess I could live with all these shit. *sigh*
AND, it really broke me when I heard that you hate yourself a lot for hurting me.
Girl, you shouldn't be hating yourself when I'm the one that brings this pain upon myself. *sigh*
But to act indifferent I must.
As much as I wanna be close to you, I can't.
I see his shadow in your eyes.
That's why whenever you are near, I'll just walk away to be on my own.
It's too much to look into those eyes.
Too unbearable to look your way coz all I see is him being next to you, making you laugh.
ARGHHH!!
To hell with these shitty feelings man.
I tried to get over you, you know?
Tried and failed so many times that I'm just so sick and tired of trying anymore.
AND, I'm definitely sick and tired of reading your plurks about him.
It only spells more heartaches for me.
Damn me. =.=
I can't complete with your walking checklist.
Never did stand a chance from the very start.
I think I'll just stop here before it leads to something else more...private.
This is something I found so yeah, I'll just post it up. x)
I miss you, I need you. If only you knew the pain I feel when I'm not with you and I'm thinking about you all day which never makes the pain go away. The pain I have knowing that this might be my last day, my last breath, that you may be my last kiss, my last love. The pain you put me through, I hope you never have to feel because the pain makes you not want to feel.
xX Shaun.Life bites, so deal with it.
7:28 AM
7:28 AM
