Sometimes I get so tired from all this denying and hiding.
So why hide, you might ask.
Truth be told, I'm nothing more than a coward.
Thinking that everything will be okay if I hide everything in; pushing this pain deeper and deeper.
Little did I know, the wound continued festering, festering, festering...
So what am I to do?
*sigh*
Here are some lyrics from some songs worth checking out.
You make it impossibleto get to your heartas soon as I'm closeis when you close the dooryou pushing me far awayand making it hardI know what you're going throughbeen hurt beforeso let down your guardI'll show you LOVEbut you still running like a rebel without a causeyou make it impossible to get to your heartyou still running like a rebel without a causeNikki Flores - Rebel
If I could live without you,I would just walk away.But I feel sick when I'm not around you.Like I'm allergic to the pain.If I could breathe without you,I would let go of your hand.but every time I try,I feel like half a man.So its obvious I can't.No prayers of loveHave fallen way too far.There's no cure, no drugTo heal my burning heart...Claude Kelly - Obvious
And the second I looked at you I couldn't say a thingAll of a sudden I had butterflies in my stomach, I couldn't breatheWhy? Why couldn't I show her what I felt inside my heart?Why? Why couldn't I tell her how special she means to me?Why? Does it have to be this way?Why? Why do I sit and cry cause she's not mine?Why? Why do I feel so down, when she's not around?Why? Does it have to be this way?It's time for me to stop being a cowardAnd face this stuff right now.Finaldraft - Why
February of 14, I was lonely on this dayGuess Cupid never got my letter so yet I still prayEach and everyday of my life hoping that she would stayBut on this day I found out she went onher separate wayThings I thought were wrong I found out it was trueI messed up again thinking that it was just me and youAlone on this date and it was just like last yearSame time, same rhyme, and baby you ain't hereAnd even if the sun refused to shineEven if romance ran out of rhyme.You would still have my heart untilthe end of timeYou're all I need, my love, myValentine.Albert Posis ft. Shiny - Valentine
You got me reminiscing all the timeWish that I could press rewind.Stevie Hoang - So Cold
Girl it's written all on your facethat you don't really want me here.I understand and I'm sorry girl for wasting your timeI'm sorry cos i can't get you off my mindI handed you my heart and then you broke itI hope that you cared for meI'm sorry for loving youI'm sorry that I tried.A. Dave - Sorry For Loving You
Throw me a ropeDon't leave me drowning in an ocean so coldI really need you to help me understandWhy you don't reach for my handWhen you know i'm hurtingI've been on the sideline waiting babyFeeling like i'm here aloneI don't wanna be your last resortSitting on the bench waiting for your callI thought that we were closerI try and i try and you're never aroundI say i won't cry, but the tears they comePouring and the truth is iDon't wanna leave but i'm losing my mindWaiting on the sidelineThis is your chanceOur song is playingAnd you should want us to danceYou used to laugh when i would step on your feetIs that just a memory?Marina Chello - Sideline
I think I'll stop here before I spam this whole post with lyrics. =D
xX Shaun K.
